Hmm.. today they feature some 'youths' (i.e. in their thirties) being party of the youth arm of the opposition, Workers Party.
Sound very gung ho and enthusiastic. But it also sounds like there's a lot of talk and not quite enough maturity. It doesn't mean that if one can speak well, call for open debate, be outspoken, dares to challenge the system, one is an effective opposition.
That may be how politics in the States work. But in Singapore, no can do. It just sounds a little tired - like we're going through the cycle again, and people who speak out that way seems a little wet behind the ears. Because it's simply not how things are run here.
Just yesterday, someone was commenting in the papers(I'm paraphrasing) that Singapore may be souless (don't agree with that! but nevermind) but it's competent. What we want is a government which can get things done, not a 'spin machine', spending millions of campaign dollars simply to get votes. Sometimes, the results speak for itself. Lower crime rate, education, job rate, etc
It doesn't mean Singapore doesn't have an opposition. It just doesn't have an opposition in the common sense of the word. But I believe there are checks and balances in the system, various focus group to keep the political and executive machinery running efficiently.
I'm of the view that if one is not 'in the system', one would not know the problems and the day to day running of said system - and criticising it is not doing your part to help. Singapore is such an interesting political model because changes truely come from within.
And opposition is not external. Since Singapore was independent, talented opposition leaders (Tony Tan comes to mind) has been assimilated into 'the system'. And why not? Instead of making noise, be part of the system to effect change. That's how it works in Singapore. Play by the rules and you can get things done. Play outside the rules and you're out of the game.
If I had to give a name to the system here, it would be 'authoritarian democracy'. Quite an oxymoron in terms!
Actually, have you wondered why a democracy came about?
Well, we know the advantage of a democracy - to represent the majority interest.
But on the flip side, a democracy came about because of a negative - to prevent the abuse of power by an authoritarian figure. Interesting read if you traced the origins of democracy in Athens. (Empires rise and fall by the actions of a ruler).
For every Hitler, there was a Winston Churchill. Even the antithesis of democracy, communism failed, because it become a warped version of it's ideal. During the Stalinist regime, it became a personality cult. It has its own representation, in the form of an executive committee and before that, a party by the peoples. It failed, not so much in it's political structure but because it's politics and beliefs gave birth to a non-viable economic model. Equal distribution rather than capitalism.. selah.
Friday, September 09, 2005
Thursday, September 08, 2005
Very precious in the sight of the Lord
1 Peter 3:4
rather let it be the hidden person of the heart, with the incorruptible beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is very precious in the sight of God
1 Peter 3 begins by talking about relationship in the context of marriage. It also refers to women.
I used not to understand the meaning of "gentle and quiet" - 'cos I'm not. Well, I knew enough of Abba's love to know that He loves me just the way I am. And any passage that I read that I sense has the potential to give me bondage - I'll discard for the moment because I know that the holy-spirit interpretation will produce liberty and life. And if I interpret it so that by my understanding, it binds me, well then, my understanding is wrong.
Since then, I've seen so many examples of a "gentle and quiet" spirit. It does not mean outward demeanor but rather, an inward restfulness. A cheerful, outgoing woman of God may have a "gentle and quiet" spirit. It is not the outward form only.
Today, I was reading a supplement to the Straits Times. Every Thursday, they have a fashion supplement called Urban. And generally, I like to read it for the fashion and the clothes.
Hmm.. God created shopping for us women to enjoy :) Although personally, I don't think God likes shopping much. Whenever I go shopping with Him, I find the stuff that I'm looking for real fast. And even when I insist to browse around and try out other clothes, I still come back to the first few that I tried on initially - just a side note. Maybe it's a male thing.. I don't know.. hahaha :D
Anyway, in today's Urban, they were talking about vagina surgery and breast reductions. I couldn't be bothered reading about the former.. but really! It must be quite unhealthy to be obsessed by the body only. I feel pity for them. Is this what life for them is boiled down to? An endless nitpicking on looks and microscopic examination on self?
Coming across these articles reminded me of how far Abba has brought me. From a mundane life to truly, LIFE! found in Him. I used to think life consisted of activities and activities and how many social engagements I have and how much fun I can have. But after all the busyness, and I'm alone by myself, deep within me I asked, "Is that all there is? Is life living one event to the next?"
Now, my soul satisfaction is found in Him. It's a state of INTENSE contentment, of quiet passion, a reservoir of strength and fulfillment - it's satisfaction regardless of circumstances and events. It is building, growing within, rather than social networking and doing.
Does it mean being a homebody?
By no means. I like to chill out, hang out with friends. Usually, I bring Jesus along or it's not quite as fun :D It's not so much a matter of conscious prayer. Just last night, I had a conversation with Him and I realised I haven't really spoken to Him for quite some time, in a known tongue. It was nice - and I felt it's okay 'cos He makes me aware of Him all the time.
You know, it's like a couple who's really busy. But it's those many eye-contacts during the day, it's like the reassuring touch on the arm, the hold of the hand, the quick hug and brush of lips on the face. I think that's what we experience when my thoughts rest on Him at various times of the day.
And I have started praying in tongues again. I have zero self-discipline. Especially in my line of work when I'm my own boss, that's no good. But I've tried schedules and plans and goal-setting and I'm simply not motivated. Even regularly going to church and reading the bible and good Christian books doesn't cut it.
But somehow praying continuously in tongues bring me a peace and an unconscious (not even desire or want) automatic response to do the things that I'm supposed to do which I've procrastinated for so long. No logic behind it. But just letting Him take over and pray for me is far far easy than all the self-motivation "I must do this" psychology and "know thyself" personality tests (though interesting :)) can ever do for me.
rather let it be the hidden person of the heart, with the incorruptible beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is very precious in the sight of God
1 Peter 3 begins by talking about relationship in the context of marriage. It also refers to women.
I used not to understand the meaning of "gentle and quiet" - 'cos I'm not. Well, I knew enough of Abba's love to know that He loves me just the way I am. And any passage that I read that I sense has the potential to give me bondage - I'll discard for the moment because I know that the holy-spirit interpretation will produce liberty and life. And if I interpret it so that by my understanding, it binds me, well then, my understanding is wrong.
Since then, I've seen so many examples of a "gentle and quiet" spirit. It does not mean outward demeanor but rather, an inward restfulness. A cheerful, outgoing woman of God may have a "gentle and quiet" spirit. It is not the outward form only.
Today, I was reading a supplement to the Straits Times. Every Thursday, they have a fashion supplement called Urban. And generally, I like to read it for the fashion and the clothes.
Hmm.. God created shopping for us women to enjoy :) Although personally, I don't think God likes shopping much. Whenever I go shopping with Him, I find the stuff that I'm looking for real fast. And even when I insist to browse around and try out other clothes, I still come back to the first few that I tried on initially - just a side note. Maybe it's a male thing.. I don't know.. hahaha :D
Anyway, in today's Urban, they were talking about vagina surgery and breast reductions. I couldn't be bothered reading about the former.. but really! It must be quite unhealthy to be obsessed by the body only. I feel pity for them. Is this what life for them is boiled down to? An endless nitpicking on looks and microscopic examination on self?
Coming across these articles reminded me of how far Abba has brought me. From a mundane life to truly, LIFE! found in Him. I used to think life consisted of activities and activities and how many social engagements I have and how much fun I can have. But after all the busyness, and I'm alone by myself, deep within me I asked, "Is that all there is? Is life living one event to the next?"
Now, my soul satisfaction is found in Him. It's a state of INTENSE contentment, of quiet passion, a reservoir of strength and fulfillment - it's satisfaction regardless of circumstances and events. It is building, growing within, rather than social networking and doing.
Does it mean being a homebody?
By no means. I like to chill out, hang out with friends. Usually, I bring Jesus along or it's not quite as fun :D It's not so much a matter of conscious prayer. Just last night, I had a conversation with Him and I realised I haven't really spoken to Him for quite some time, in a known tongue. It was nice - and I felt it's okay 'cos He makes me aware of Him all the time.
You know, it's like a couple who's really busy. But it's those many eye-contacts during the day, it's like the reassuring touch on the arm, the hold of the hand, the quick hug and brush of lips on the face. I think that's what we experience when my thoughts rest on Him at various times of the day.
And I have started praying in tongues again. I have zero self-discipline. Especially in my line of work when I'm my own boss, that's no good. But I've tried schedules and plans and goal-setting and I'm simply not motivated. Even regularly going to church and reading the bible and good Christian books doesn't cut it.
But somehow praying continuously in tongues bring me a peace and an unconscious (not even desire or want) automatic response to do the things that I'm supposed to do which I've procrastinated for so long. No logic behind it. But just letting Him take over and pray for me is far far easy than all the self-motivation "I must do this" psychology and "know thyself" personality tests (though interesting :)) can ever do for me.
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
God answers prayer
This is one of my favourite songs I loved to sing when I was in Fairfield Methodist Primary. I don't know whether I was saved yet, but it was chapel time.
Abba told me He enjoyed me singing to Him when I was a child, even though I didn't know the significance. Then, I see in my heart, like in a mini-vision - He brought me back to years before, when I was I think about 9 years young, bobbing about to the tune of this song and my Daddy, smiling happily along. :)
Have you ever talked to God above?
Tell Him that you need a friend to love
Pray in Jesus' name believing that
God answers prayer
Have you told Him all your cares and woes?
Every tiny little fear He knows
You can know He always hear and
He will answer prayer
Have you whispered in a crowd to Him
cried aloud when you're alone with Him
You don't have to pray out loud to Him
He knows your thoughts
On a lofty mountain peak He's there
In a meadow by a stream He's there
anywhere on earth you go
He's been there from the start
Find the answer in His Word, it's true
You'll be strong because He walks with you
By His faithfulness He changed you too
God answers prayer
Abba told me He enjoyed me singing to Him when I was a child, even though I didn't know the significance. Then, I see in my heart, like in a mini-vision - He brought me back to years before, when I was I think about 9 years young, bobbing about to the tune of this song and my Daddy, smiling happily along. :)
Have you ever talked to God above?
Tell Him that you need a friend to love
Pray in Jesus' name believing that
God answers prayer
Have you told Him all your cares and woes?
Every tiny little fear He knows
You can know He always hear and
He will answer prayer
Have you whispered in a crowd to Him
cried aloud when you're alone with Him
You don't have to pray out loud to Him
He knows your thoughts
On a lofty mountain peak He's there
In a meadow by a stream He's there
anywhere on earth you go
He's been there from the start
Find the answer in His Word, it's true
You'll be strong because He walks with you
By His faithfulness He changed you too
God answers prayer
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
Resist
I am writing this after reading Rebekah's blog.
Sometimes, when I look around and see sicknesses, especially in young children, I just hate the devil so much. He comes with misery and pain and suffering. I think when Jesus walked on earth, it pained him to see the blind, the lepers, people suffering. And I believed it angered Him very much also.
I HATE the devil and what he is doing. And I won't stand for it. And I know God Almighty won't stand for it. I know that he is a defeated foe. Only RESIST and he will FLEE.
You know what, the God of peace has already crushed him. Where? Under His feet, NO! It's under MY feet. The devil is already crushed by God under MY feet. (Romans 16:20) Don't take his filthy nonsense! He has NO authority over anything for you are the Lord's.
Touch not God's anointed. You know what Christians mean? It means the Anointed Ones.
The truth is that the power of darkness has NO power over us for we have been translated from darkness to light through Jesus Christ. For we have LIFE now through His death.
Let nothing that we see or hear convince us otherwise. And even through sufferings, let us cling on to this truth - that God loves, specifically, your child and He is more than able to rescue for He is the Lord that healeth.
Only stand fast on His Word. Where nothing seems to be happening and where our strength and our heart fails, where there is pain all around - yet we can have hope in the God who loves us, who has given Himself for us.
Sometimes, when I look around and see sicknesses, especially in young children, I just hate the devil so much. He comes with misery and pain and suffering. I think when Jesus walked on earth, it pained him to see the blind, the lepers, people suffering. And I believed it angered Him very much also.
I HATE the devil and what he is doing. And I won't stand for it. And I know God Almighty won't stand for it. I know that he is a defeated foe. Only RESIST and he will FLEE.
You know what, the God of peace has already crushed him. Where? Under His feet, NO! It's under MY feet. The devil is already crushed by God under MY feet. (Romans 16:20) Don't take his filthy nonsense! He has NO authority over anything for you are the Lord's.
Touch not God's anointed. You know what Christians mean? It means the Anointed Ones.
The truth is that the power of darkness has NO power over us for we have been translated from darkness to light through Jesus Christ. For we have LIFE now through His death.
Let nothing that we see or hear convince us otherwise. And even through sufferings, let us cling on to this truth - that God loves, specifically, your child and He is more than able to rescue for He is the Lord that healeth.
Only stand fast on His Word. Where nothing seems to be happening and where our strength and our heart fails, where there is pain all around - yet we can have hope in the God who loves us, who has given Himself for us.
What's next?
Is Jesus coming back? Is the rapture coming soon?
Despite the events that are about the world today - and these may be signs.. it is my personal opinion, not yet.
Though I do believe that I will see the rapture in my lifetime and I will not see death. Somehow, the number 150 years comes to mind... :D hmmm...
After all, dear Moses lived to 120 years and he was under the old covenant. How much more glorious the ministry of the spirit is! The spirit that zoefies my mortal body. And restoration through Jesus Christ is far greater and above the position of the first Adam. And boy, he lived for over 900 years.
Why not soon?
Because the church is just beginning on it's transformation of glory! The last enemy to be put under our feet is death. So before that poverty, sickness would be replaced by health and wealth...
It is not that we have to see the results of the gospel to believe. We, in Christ, knows that all things are given, though not manifested. And we have to look at events beyond the finite constraints of time - for manifestation is only a matter of time. But believing the gospel, the good news of the peace and favour of God - that is the strength and assurance we have with Him.
And what is more sure through looking back at the cross, where God in human flesh, our saviour and lover, Jesus Christ hung. Sometimes I look at the depravity of sin and wonder how a holy God who knew no sin is able to take it on Himself. The savagery of His spiritual death far exceeds His physical one. The bible describes His death in the original as Jesus dying many deaths.
Sometimes, I feel like I'm untouchable by the things that happen in the world. Remember the seals in Revelation that God has redeemed me from? He loves me so much, how can He stand by and let worldly events or things take my life?
But even when I go through trials; yea, though I may walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil for He is with me. His rod and staff, they comfort me.
I just recall Caleb and Joshua, who had a different spirit. They saw the giants, and they were going to war. Did they not know that they may die in battle? But somehow, they were oblivious to these natural facts. Facts are not falsehood - it is something that people acknowledge as the truth because truth is perceived through their senses.
But we have been born-again. A new creation! There was something awesome that God created when Jesus died and rose again. Just as many many years ago, God breathed His breath and created man in His image and man sinned and that breath and image of God within them died. Now, as a new creation, something that was dead within us is born-again. We are no longer souls in a mortal body. But we're a tripartite being. Born-again of the Spirit of God, with a soul and a mortal body.
And perhaps even more mysteriously, not only of our own Spirit, but we are One with His Spirit. That it is Christ IN us NOW! Adam's spirit was alive and I believe his spirit and body was an image of God. How much more, even now, after the cross, where our spirit is not an image of God, but somehow, One with Him.
And as spirit beings, we perceive reality, and true perception of reality for a Christian is not through the mortal senses. But through the Spirit of God. It is not holy spirit goosebumps and weird vibes. I don't know, I'm still learning.
This I know, to bring every thought captive to the Word of God. To bring everything I observe and subject it to His Word, His truth. To know that only His Word is reality, even when it is contrary to what I see and feel.
I used to wonder about this verse which talks about crucifying the passions of the flesh. And I wondered whether a Christian life is 'passion-less' because the activities that I used to enjoy, I no longer do. Sometimes on TV, they have these appeals to charity, and I am not moved.
Abba loves me with a passion. I cannot fathom that I am passion-less just because I don't 'feel' it. Afterall, I am an offspring of God Himself, who is love. And if I ever doubt about the passion of God, I just have to meditate on the manner of His death. Knowing truely, how Jesus suffered for love for us, who can ever doubt His passion or His love for me?
In fact, I don't 'feel' a lot of things. And when I erupt, I cool down real fast. When the holy spirit teaches me, He'll not be pointing his finger at me and saying, "You should do this". In fact, most of the times, I would look at myself (mistake! Nothing good comes with looking at myself) and say "I should..." In fact, He just writes His laws on my heart and then I desire to do something. Like desiring to apologise! In the past, that would have been an ego hurdle.
It's wonderful to be able to complain to God. Sometimes when I'm so angry, I just want to spew venom and use words to cut the person who makes me mad, I need to take that step of faith and quickly leave the room before I say things that I regret. I go lock myself in my own room and vent at Abba. And sometimes words in a known tongue are so limited and not very nice to hear..and there I am spluttering with anger (thank God! these incidents are very few nowadays..)
Well, I don't know whether it's PC or not, but I'll complain to God in tongues. I can just talk and talk in an angry tone in tongues and it's very eloquent. (honestly, it sounds pretty good. Like I'm giving a speech or something.. hahaha) I don't know what I am saying. I know that in an unknown tongue I speak to God, and not me, but my spirit prays. (prayer is talking to God) But at least even though I am praying through my flesh, it's the holy spirit that is praying. And I cool down after a while, and then think to myself, "Gee, what's the big deal?"
I totally veered off the topic of 'What's next?'
Hmmm... no matter what, I know He loves me. I went to Comex last Sunday and participated in 2 blessed draws. Anyway, one of the prize was a PDA and I wanted it. So of course I asked Dad, "Abba, I really want the PDA. I want it." And well, I know that He is rich and He loves me, so hey, why not?
Well, I didn't get the PDA. And of course I was disappointed. Okay, this is a small incident, but Abba always speaks to me through small incidents of everyday life. So at this point I can ask, "Why Abba?" I didn't verbally, but in my heart, yes, sure, I thought about it.
But you know what, whether or not He answered my prayer didn't really bother me. He didn't have to give me a PDA to show that He loves me and hears my prayer. He has demonstrated His love for me when He sent His only beloved Son, Jesus Christ to die on the cross for me. Looking at the cross is more certain than if His love depends on the things that He can give me now. Of course, I believe that if I didn't get the PDA, He has something better in mind for me. He's so in love with me what! And I'm not saying that flippantly. He really loves me very much!
I just draw this analogy to what happened in New Orleans where some people was asking how God can let this happen to Christians? The implicit accusation underlying this is "God, if You loved them, You would have rescued them."
His love is already demonstrated on the cross.
And, my own opinion again, I personally believe, how much God can move depends on one's revelation of one's authority in Christ. This world is a fallen world. And although many people say God is in control, it is my view that God is in control only over His covenant people. All authority on heaven and earth, all power over principalities is given over to Jesus. And Jesus has given it to His church. That is why there is something about prayer that 'allows' God to move. I believe that prayer is activating the blood covenant that Almighty God has with me. Also, the Word says to speak to the mountain. Sure, you can talk to God about your problem, but the Word says, you speak to the mountain. Children of God, you have the authority. How many of us knows that?
It is something powerful when we know who we are in Christ - I believe that even if I were in New Orleans, somehow my Abba would have gotten me out of there. As Christ is, so am I in this world. Are they not all ministering spirits sent to serve the heirs of salvation?
So even if I refuse to heed Him and disobeyed, am I so powerful that my act of disobedience is able to thwart His plan for me, His power to save me even from the follies of my own actions? God makes all things, good and bad, work for good, for those who love Him.
I believe the phrase "for those who love Him" - I know it seems dependent on how much we love God. But how do we love God? This is love, not that we love Him, but that He loved us, and sent His son as a propitiation for our sins.
We can't love Him on our own. Man tried to for 2000 years. But there's only one Man who could love God with all His heart, all His soul and all His might, and was able to keep the entirety of the law.
So we love God only through a heart revelation of His love for us. So that even the love we love Him with, is fueled by His love for us and not our own love. For God is love. And how do we 'get' this revelation?
How did David know that God is love? He spoke after His loving kindness which is better than life? How did this lad (afterwards a King of Judah and Israel) who lived under the old covenant knew about God's love?
Why, he was a shepherd who walked in the meadows, tending his sheep. Not much of a career when you think about it... but in the midst of that, he just enjoyed talking to God and worshipping Him. I suppose for us today, it's taking time to walk and talk with Him, like when He used to walk with man in the Garden.
I liked what Pastor said. "We have coffee with friends but do you know that God wants to coffee with you. And you know what, when you talk to God, He talks back! And boy, does He have things to say."
Remember, the devil goes about LIKE a roaring lion. He is known as the accusor of the brethren. Your Dad has more class than to point fingers. All your sins (past, present and FUTURE) have been punished in the body of His Son, so that He is now, righteous and just to remember our sins no more because Jesus did a finished work.
Now, I come boldly to the throne of grace to have coffee with Abba. To sit at His feet and perhaps daydream. And allow Him to hold my hand and to look into the eyes of my Beloved and well, simply to R&R in His love for me. Today, it's like a warm blanket. On other days, it seems like crashing into the waves of His love.
Who have I in heaven but You? There is none like You. There is none I desire besides You.
Despite the events that are about the world today - and these may be signs.. it is my personal opinion, not yet.
Though I do believe that I will see the rapture in my lifetime and I will not see death. Somehow, the number 150 years comes to mind... :D hmmm...
After all, dear Moses lived to 120 years and he was under the old covenant. How much more glorious the ministry of the spirit is! The spirit that zoefies my mortal body. And restoration through Jesus Christ is far greater and above the position of the first Adam. And boy, he lived for over 900 years.
Why not soon?
Because the church is just beginning on it's transformation of glory! The last enemy to be put under our feet is death. So before that poverty, sickness would be replaced by health and wealth...
It is not that we have to see the results of the gospel to believe. We, in Christ, knows that all things are given, though not manifested. And we have to look at events beyond the finite constraints of time - for manifestation is only a matter of time. But believing the gospel, the good news of the peace and favour of God - that is the strength and assurance we have with Him.
And what is more sure through looking back at the cross, where God in human flesh, our saviour and lover, Jesus Christ hung. Sometimes I look at the depravity of sin and wonder how a holy God who knew no sin is able to take it on Himself. The savagery of His spiritual death far exceeds His physical one. The bible describes His death in the original as Jesus dying many deaths.
Sometimes, I feel like I'm untouchable by the things that happen in the world. Remember the seals in Revelation that God has redeemed me from? He loves me so much, how can He stand by and let worldly events or things take my life?
But even when I go through trials; yea, though I may walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil for He is with me. His rod and staff, they comfort me.
I just recall Caleb and Joshua, who had a different spirit. They saw the giants, and they were going to war. Did they not know that they may die in battle? But somehow, they were oblivious to these natural facts. Facts are not falsehood - it is something that people acknowledge as the truth because truth is perceived through their senses.
But we have been born-again. A new creation! There was something awesome that God created when Jesus died and rose again. Just as many many years ago, God breathed His breath and created man in His image and man sinned and that breath and image of God within them died. Now, as a new creation, something that was dead within us is born-again. We are no longer souls in a mortal body. But we're a tripartite being. Born-again of the Spirit of God, with a soul and a mortal body.
And perhaps even more mysteriously, not only of our own Spirit, but we are One with His Spirit. That it is Christ IN us NOW! Adam's spirit was alive and I believe his spirit and body was an image of God. How much more, even now, after the cross, where our spirit is not an image of God, but somehow, One with Him.
And as spirit beings, we perceive reality, and true perception of reality for a Christian is not through the mortal senses. But through the Spirit of God. It is not holy spirit goosebumps and weird vibes. I don't know, I'm still learning.
This I know, to bring every thought captive to the Word of God. To bring everything I observe and subject it to His Word, His truth. To know that only His Word is reality, even when it is contrary to what I see and feel.
I used to wonder about this verse which talks about crucifying the passions of the flesh. And I wondered whether a Christian life is 'passion-less' because the activities that I used to enjoy, I no longer do. Sometimes on TV, they have these appeals to charity, and I am not moved.
Abba loves me with a passion. I cannot fathom that I am passion-less just because I don't 'feel' it. Afterall, I am an offspring of God Himself, who is love. And if I ever doubt about the passion of God, I just have to meditate on the manner of His death. Knowing truely, how Jesus suffered for love for us, who can ever doubt His passion or His love for me?
In fact, I don't 'feel' a lot of things. And when I erupt, I cool down real fast. When the holy spirit teaches me, He'll not be pointing his finger at me and saying, "You should do this". In fact, most of the times, I would look at myself (mistake! Nothing good comes with looking at myself) and say "I should..." In fact, He just writes His laws on my heart and then I desire to do something. Like desiring to apologise! In the past, that would have been an ego hurdle.
It's wonderful to be able to complain to God. Sometimes when I'm so angry, I just want to spew venom and use words to cut the person who makes me mad, I need to take that step of faith and quickly leave the room before I say things that I regret. I go lock myself in my own room and vent at Abba. And sometimes words in a known tongue are so limited and not very nice to hear..and there I am spluttering with anger (thank God! these incidents are very few nowadays..)
Well, I don't know whether it's PC or not, but I'll complain to God in tongues. I can just talk and talk in an angry tone in tongues and it's very eloquent. (honestly, it sounds pretty good. Like I'm giving a speech or something.. hahaha) I don't know what I am saying. I know that in an unknown tongue I speak to God, and not me, but my spirit prays. (prayer is talking to God) But at least even though I am praying through my flesh, it's the holy spirit that is praying. And I cool down after a while, and then think to myself, "Gee, what's the big deal?"
I totally veered off the topic of 'What's next?'
Hmmm... no matter what, I know He loves me. I went to Comex last Sunday and participated in 2 blessed draws. Anyway, one of the prize was a PDA and I wanted it. So of course I asked Dad, "Abba, I really want the PDA. I want it." And well, I know that He is rich and He loves me, so hey, why not?
Well, I didn't get the PDA. And of course I was disappointed. Okay, this is a small incident, but Abba always speaks to me through small incidents of everyday life. So at this point I can ask, "Why Abba?" I didn't verbally, but in my heart, yes, sure, I thought about it.
But you know what, whether or not He answered my prayer didn't really bother me. He didn't have to give me a PDA to show that He loves me and hears my prayer. He has demonstrated His love for me when He sent His only beloved Son, Jesus Christ to die on the cross for me. Looking at the cross is more certain than if His love depends on the things that He can give me now. Of course, I believe that if I didn't get the PDA, He has something better in mind for me. He's so in love with me what! And I'm not saying that flippantly. He really loves me very much!
I just draw this analogy to what happened in New Orleans where some people was asking how God can let this happen to Christians? The implicit accusation underlying this is "God, if You loved them, You would have rescued them."
His love is already demonstrated on the cross.
And, my own opinion again, I personally believe, how much God can move depends on one's revelation of one's authority in Christ. This world is a fallen world. And although many people say God is in control, it is my view that God is in control only over His covenant people. All authority on heaven and earth, all power over principalities is given over to Jesus. And Jesus has given it to His church. That is why there is something about prayer that 'allows' God to move. I believe that prayer is activating the blood covenant that Almighty God has with me. Also, the Word says to speak to the mountain. Sure, you can talk to God about your problem, but the Word says, you speak to the mountain. Children of God, you have the authority. How many of us knows that?
It is something powerful when we know who we are in Christ - I believe that even if I were in New Orleans, somehow my Abba would have gotten me out of there. As Christ is, so am I in this world. Are they not all ministering spirits sent to serve the heirs of salvation?
So even if I refuse to heed Him and disobeyed, am I so powerful that my act of disobedience is able to thwart His plan for me, His power to save me even from the follies of my own actions? God makes all things, good and bad, work for good, for those who love Him.
I believe the phrase "for those who love Him" - I know it seems dependent on how much we love God. But how do we love God? This is love, not that we love Him, but that He loved us, and sent His son as a propitiation for our sins.
We can't love Him on our own. Man tried to for 2000 years. But there's only one Man who could love God with all His heart, all His soul and all His might, and was able to keep the entirety of the law.
So we love God only through a heart revelation of His love for us. So that even the love we love Him with, is fueled by His love for us and not our own love. For God is love. And how do we 'get' this revelation?
How did David know that God is love? He spoke after His loving kindness which is better than life? How did this lad (afterwards a King of Judah and Israel) who lived under the old covenant knew about God's love?
Why, he was a shepherd who walked in the meadows, tending his sheep. Not much of a career when you think about it... but in the midst of that, he just enjoyed talking to God and worshipping Him. I suppose for us today, it's taking time to walk and talk with Him, like when He used to walk with man in the Garden.
I liked what Pastor said. "We have coffee with friends but do you know that God wants to coffee with you. And you know what, when you talk to God, He talks back! And boy, does He have things to say."
Remember, the devil goes about LIKE a roaring lion. He is known as the accusor of the brethren. Your Dad has more class than to point fingers. All your sins (past, present and FUTURE) have been punished in the body of His Son, so that He is now, righteous and just to remember our sins no more because Jesus did a finished work.
Now, I come boldly to the throne of grace to have coffee with Abba. To sit at His feet and perhaps daydream. And allow Him to hold my hand and to look into the eyes of my Beloved and well, simply to R&R in His love for me. Today, it's like a warm blanket. On other days, it seems like crashing into the waves of His love.
Who have I in heaven but You? There is none like You. There is none I desire besides You.
Friday, September 02, 2005
God creates beauty
Yesterday, I was looking after some children. In came this rather frazzled parent with his child. They were of Middle-Eastern origin.
In Singapore, we're a multi-racial society. But middle-eastern is well, pretty 'exotic' He left his boy, a precocious, intelligent, active 4 year old who flittered from toy to toy.
Oh, I think it's so blessed to have children! They are a joy, and they remind me how to live life in unconscious enjoyment. We had a corner with a play stove and food. He had spent some time cooking, and as children were wont to do, got diverted and was playing 'chess' with me.
Suddenly, he got up and cried, "oh, oh, the food is burning, the food is burning!" And hurried over to his stove to check on the cooking! hahaha :D It was hilarious! I wonder how many times he observed his mum saying the same thing. Talk about a reality show. :)
I think children have that capacity to live life with glee. Wish we remember that! After all, we are sons of the Most High!
Anyway, later I found out that he was Turkish. I took a close look at father and son...
Have you ever thought, we are all human beings, with two eyes, ears, a nose and a mouth. Yet different, not only between the races but also individuals. We all look different but still beautiful.
Abba is so creative. And He creates beauty.
I'm a fan of sci-fiction, particularly Star Trek. And the aliens (or, like my Pastor likes to humorously call them, the 'ah-lians'.. local joke..) are so weird and quite ugly. In the bid to make different aliens, they create these beings with different skin colour, funny antennas, scaly skin etc...
Our imagination simply cannot compare with His.
With one single entity, the homosapiens, He has created a myriad of races, of colour and diversity using a single template. It is in the nuances - the shape of the eye, the colour of the hair, the skin shade, the intonation of voice; even culturally, in the physical facial and verbal expression and of shared values.
I think the beauty is all in the details. He pays such attention to details, much like delicate art. It's in all creation. In the freshness of flora, the abundant blueness of the sky, the tangy smell of rain, the comedic giraffes and elephants (who says God does not have a sense of humour?), the majesty of mountains and waterfalls and the serenity of a sunset.
I simply cannot comprehend that the world, with all it's wonders came out from some black hole or something. If one would take the time and simply contemplate a blade of grass or feel the caress of the wind, His presence and beauty would just seep through my consciousness. All creation shouts His name.
He is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn over all creation.
For by Him all things were created that are in heaven and that are on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or principalities or powers.
All things were created through Him and for Him.
And He is before all things, and in Him all things consist.
Colossians 1:15-17
In Singapore, we're a multi-racial society. But middle-eastern is well, pretty 'exotic' He left his boy, a precocious, intelligent, active 4 year old who flittered from toy to toy.
Oh, I think it's so blessed to have children! They are a joy, and they remind me how to live life in unconscious enjoyment. We had a corner with a play stove and food. He had spent some time cooking, and as children were wont to do, got diverted and was playing 'chess' with me.
Suddenly, he got up and cried, "oh, oh, the food is burning, the food is burning!" And hurried over to his stove to check on the cooking! hahaha :D It was hilarious! I wonder how many times he observed his mum saying the same thing. Talk about a reality show. :)
I think children have that capacity to live life with glee. Wish we remember that! After all, we are sons of the Most High!
Anyway, later I found out that he was Turkish. I took a close look at father and son...
Have you ever thought, we are all human beings, with two eyes, ears, a nose and a mouth. Yet different, not only between the races but also individuals. We all look different but still beautiful.
Abba is so creative. And He creates beauty.
I'm a fan of sci-fiction, particularly Star Trek. And the aliens (or, like my Pastor likes to humorously call them, the 'ah-lians'.. local joke..) are so weird and quite ugly. In the bid to make different aliens, they create these beings with different skin colour, funny antennas, scaly skin etc...
Our imagination simply cannot compare with His.
With one single entity, the homosapiens, He has created a myriad of races, of colour and diversity using a single template. It is in the nuances - the shape of the eye, the colour of the hair, the skin shade, the intonation of voice; even culturally, in the physical facial and verbal expression and of shared values.
I think the beauty is all in the details. He pays such attention to details, much like delicate art. It's in all creation. In the freshness of flora, the abundant blueness of the sky, the tangy smell of rain, the comedic giraffes and elephants (who says God does not have a sense of humour?), the majesty of mountains and waterfalls and the serenity of a sunset.
I simply cannot comprehend that the world, with all it's wonders came out from some black hole or something. If one would take the time and simply contemplate a blade of grass or feel the caress of the wind, His presence and beauty would just seep through my consciousness. All creation shouts His name.
He is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn over all creation.
For by Him all things were created that are in heaven and that are on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or principalities or powers.
All things were created through Him and for Him.
And He is before all things, and in Him all things consist.
Colossians 1:15-17
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
Oasis - times of refreshing!
This morning, I read this passage,
Do not remember the former things,
Nor consider the things of old.
Behold, I will do a new thing,
Now it shall spring forth;
Shall you not know it?
I will even make a road in the wilderness
And rivers in the desert
The beast of the field will honor Me,
The jackals and the ostriches,
Because I give waters in the wilderness
And rivers in the desert,
To give drink to My people, My chosen.
This people I have formed for Myself;
They shall declare My praise.
Isaiah 43:18-21
It struck me because Pastor Prince was preaching the New Creation. Read more about it from this lovely blog In Christ Alone: Reign In Life - Part I: Behold I Make All Things New
and just after that, we had our Oasis meeting. You know, when Gabriel gave that Word, and Pastor concurred, that the Oasis ministry is going to impact the world, something inside me said yes! With eager anticipation, and trembling... :D
v19 Behold, I will do a new thing
When I read this line, I'm reminded of a scene in the Passion. The part when Jesus was carrying the cross. It was already after the scourging, and He was struggling to carry the cross in the midst of a mocking crowd. Mary, His mother was able to finally meet Him for a brief moment. She reached His side as He fell again under the cross, and He looked up at her and said, "Look mother, I make all things new."
He made all things new.. We are a new creation, at a great price. And it was Abba's desire, so dear are we to Him that He sacrificed His only beloved Son for us.
The world is a wilderness, fallen and tragic, full of transient temporary pleasures of deceitful sweetness; confusing, large and wild. But in the midst of this, He has already made a road; He is the Way.
And even in the desert, where dryness is all around, and nothing satisfies, He has come to quench our thirst, to give waters in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.
For His people, His chosen. Can you imagine being chosen by Him? Created for Him? Sometimes I would think back and say to myself, how blessed I am to have found Jesus. But really, I realised that it is not that I have found Him, it is He who has found me. That I have been destined and chosen before time to be in His family.
That really touches me 'cos I realise that when I was in my sins - sometimes, when I recall the past, I see how unworthy I am, like a squalling babe, like a dirty harlot by the street. Yet He came by and had compassion on me, and loved me. He offered Himself to me, I don't know how many times He tried to reach me these 15 years after I turned deliberately away from Him. But He still waited for me to turn back to Him. He never left me even though I forsook Him.
And after I committed so many mistakes, I still thought I was very smart, a very knowing modern woman of the world. And He still waited. Somehow or other, I don't know how, He managed to reach past the darkness of my mind, into my heart and just touched me and then I knew that He's not just a religion. That despite everything, there was Someone who loved me unconditionally.
The moment I turned back, like the prodigal son, He didn't wait for me to apologise or whatever, but just rushed towards me, to embrace me in His love. And after that, I just know that in these 2 years, it's not so much I pursuing Him, but that He still pursues me with His love.
I didn't choose Him. He chose me for His own, for Himself. How wondrous is that!
Do not remember the former things,
Nor consider the things of old.
Behold, I will do a new thing,
Now it shall spring forth;
Shall you not know it?
I will even make a road in the wilderness
And rivers in the desert
The beast of the field will honor Me,
The jackals and the ostriches,
Because I give waters in the wilderness
And rivers in the desert,
To give drink to My people, My chosen.
This people I have formed for Myself;
They shall declare My praise.
Isaiah 43:18-21
It struck me because Pastor Prince was preaching the New Creation. Read more about it from this lovely blog In Christ Alone: Reign In Life - Part I: Behold I Make All Things New
and just after that, we had our Oasis meeting. You know, when Gabriel gave that Word, and Pastor concurred, that the Oasis ministry is going to impact the world, something inside me said yes! With eager anticipation, and trembling... :D
v19 Behold, I will do a new thing
When I read this line, I'm reminded of a scene in the Passion. The part when Jesus was carrying the cross. It was already after the scourging, and He was struggling to carry the cross in the midst of a mocking crowd. Mary, His mother was able to finally meet Him for a brief moment. She reached His side as He fell again under the cross, and He looked up at her and said, "Look mother, I make all things new."
He made all things new.. We are a new creation, at a great price. And it was Abba's desire, so dear are we to Him that He sacrificed His only beloved Son for us.
The world is a wilderness, fallen and tragic, full of transient temporary pleasures of deceitful sweetness; confusing, large and wild. But in the midst of this, He has already made a road; He is the Way.
And even in the desert, where dryness is all around, and nothing satisfies, He has come to quench our thirst, to give waters in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.
For His people, His chosen. Can you imagine being chosen by Him? Created for Him? Sometimes I would think back and say to myself, how blessed I am to have found Jesus. But really, I realised that it is not that I have found Him, it is He who has found me. That I have been destined and chosen before time to be in His family.
That really touches me 'cos I realise that when I was in my sins - sometimes, when I recall the past, I see how unworthy I am, like a squalling babe, like a dirty harlot by the street. Yet He came by and had compassion on me, and loved me. He offered Himself to me, I don't know how many times He tried to reach me these 15 years after I turned deliberately away from Him. But He still waited for me to turn back to Him. He never left me even though I forsook Him.
And after I committed so many mistakes, I still thought I was very smart, a very knowing modern woman of the world. And He still waited. Somehow or other, I don't know how, He managed to reach past the darkness of my mind, into my heart and just touched me and then I knew that He's not just a religion. That despite everything, there was Someone who loved me unconditionally.
The moment I turned back, like the prodigal son, He didn't wait for me to apologise or whatever, but just rushed towards me, to embrace me in His love. And after that, I just know that in these 2 years, it's not so much I pursuing Him, but that He still pursues me with His love.
I didn't choose Him. He chose me for His own, for Himself. How wondrous is that!
Sunday, August 28, 2005
Can't live a day without You
On the way to church today, I was 'stoning' in the bus, and this song came to me :)
It's You
You who have won my heart
Taken me into Your arms
Comforted me like a friend
Your love,
Surrounded me from the start
I never want to be apart
From You ever again
The journey back to Jesus is so precious to me. I have lived life without Him and I have lived life with Him. And let me tell You, the present is oh so much sweeter. Even as I looked back on my past, I see His faithfulness in my life - at a time when I was in denial. I am the most 'intellectual' person I know then, and I simply could not 'figure' Christianity out.
Now, looking back, there is no way to know God with my head. I only am able to know Him with my heart. At times, He's the only sure person I can cling on. The rock that I hold on to and rest in.
Have you ever felt desperate for Him? I have! Sometimes, He seems so far, but actually He's very close. Sometimes, I just want to get closer still but don't know how. Then I just pray in tongues, or just say His name over and over again, and speak His Word, and yes, sometimes I sing too!
I could live life alone
And never fill the longings of my heart
The healing warmth of someone's arms
And I could live without dreams
And never know the thrill of what could be
With every star so far and out of reach
I could live without many things
And I could carry on, but...
I couldn't face my life tomorrow
Without Your hope in my heart I know
I can't live a day without You
Lord, there's no night and there's no morning
Without Your loving arms to hold me
You're the heartbeat of all I do
I can't live a day without You
I could travel the world
See all the wonders beautiful and new
They'd only make me think of You
And I could have all life offers
Riches that were far beyond compare
To grant my every wish without a care
Oh, I could do anything, oh yes
But if You weren't in it all...
I couldn't face my life tomorrow
Without Your hope in my heart I know
I can't live a day without You
Lord, there's no night and there's no morning
Without Your loving arms to hold me
You're the heartbeat of all I do
I can't live a day without You
Oh, Jesus, I live because You live
You're like the air I breathe
Oh, Jesus, I have because You give
You're everything to me
From Avalon
It's You
You who have won my heart
Taken me into Your arms
Comforted me like a friend
Your love,
Surrounded me from the start
I never want to be apart
From You ever again
The journey back to Jesus is so precious to me. I have lived life without Him and I have lived life with Him. And let me tell You, the present is oh so much sweeter. Even as I looked back on my past, I see His faithfulness in my life - at a time when I was in denial. I am the most 'intellectual' person I know then, and I simply could not 'figure' Christianity out.
Now, looking back, there is no way to know God with my head. I only am able to know Him with my heart. At times, He's the only sure person I can cling on. The rock that I hold on to and rest in.
Have you ever felt desperate for Him? I have! Sometimes, He seems so far, but actually He's very close. Sometimes, I just want to get closer still but don't know how. Then I just pray in tongues, or just say His name over and over again, and speak His Word, and yes, sometimes I sing too!
I could live life alone
And never fill the longings of my heart
The healing warmth of someone's arms
And I could live without dreams
And never know the thrill of what could be
With every star so far and out of reach
I could live without many things
And I could carry on, but...
I couldn't face my life tomorrow
Without Your hope in my heart I know
I can't live a day without You
Lord, there's no night and there's no morning
Without Your loving arms to hold me
You're the heartbeat of all I do
I can't live a day without You
I could travel the world
See all the wonders beautiful and new
They'd only make me think of You
And I could have all life offers
Riches that were far beyond compare
To grant my every wish without a care
Oh, I could do anything, oh yes
But if You weren't in it all...
I couldn't face my life tomorrow
Without Your hope in my heart I know
I can't live a day without You
Lord, there's no night and there's no morning
Without Your loving arms to hold me
You're the heartbeat of all I do
I can't live a day without You
Oh, Jesus, I live because You live
You're like the air I breathe
Oh, Jesus, I have because You give
You're everything to me
From Avalon
Friday, August 26, 2005
Feeling the rhythm
This afternoon I watched a movie called "Innocent steps" This is a dance romance with some touching moments. Ballroom dancing...
Ohhh.. I'm envious. The couple looked really good together. And his posture is really suave and dashing. And she, is petite and endearing. Naturally, they progressively fall in love and after some difficulty, live almost happily ever after. :)
He's a professional dance sports competitor and trainer and she's a newbie with only a little dance background. Nevertheless, she works really hard and does everything that he tells her to. In a particular scene, they're going through the steps, but it doesn't 'click'. And he's angry with her 'cos she doesn't get the rhythm. She pleads with him to teach her how, as with all the other times.
Instead, he asks her, "Do you love me?"
Okay, guys, hold on to your goosepimples, it's not as brrrr as it sounds.
She stumped. As was I as I was watching. Like, '??? so direct?'
But he continues.. he says, "When we dance, you are in love with me... as I love you."
Sigh. Which is one of the reasons why you see most professional dance couples married to each other. It reminded me of one of the 'criteria' I asked Abba months and months ago.. you guessed it? That he can dance. And also one of the reasons I didn't pursue dance seriously.
Anyway, why did I bring this scene up on my blog?
Well, I was thinking about this particular scene as I ate my prawn and chicken salad topped with mango, kiwi, dragon fruit and strawberry toppings (so says the menu).. :D
At first, they were going through the steps, the motions, without feeling the music, the rhythm - i.e. no chemistry in the dance.
Hmm.. it just reminded me of my walk in life.
I don't dance through life alone. After accepting Christ, I'll never walk alone again. I'm with Him, He's with me all the time.
But, to be able to move in sync with Him, to enjoy the dance and the music of life, well, it's not about doing the good things, it's not only about loving others.. to feel the rhythm, it's about being in love with Him.
That's the key. The consciousness where I know that I'm in love and I know that my love is reciprocrated as long as I'm alive - here in this world, and beyond.
That's how I'm able to rest in Him, and follow His lead and enjoy the dance of life! Why, to just fall in love daily with Jesus!
Ohhh.. I'm envious. The couple looked really good together. And his posture is really suave and dashing. And she, is petite and endearing. Naturally, they progressively fall in love and after some difficulty, live almost happily ever after. :)
He's a professional dance sports competitor and trainer and she's a newbie with only a little dance background. Nevertheless, she works really hard and does everything that he tells her to. In a particular scene, they're going through the steps, but it doesn't 'click'. And he's angry with her 'cos she doesn't get the rhythm. She pleads with him to teach her how, as with all the other times.
Instead, he asks her, "Do you love me?"
Okay, guys, hold on to your goosepimples, it's not as brrrr as it sounds.
She stumped. As was I as I was watching. Like, '??? so direct?'
But he continues.. he says, "When we dance, you are in love with me... as I love you."
Sigh. Which is one of the reasons why you see most professional dance couples married to each other. It reminded me of one of the 'criteria' I asked Abba months and months ago.. you guessed it? That he can dance. And also one of the reasons I didn't pursue dance seriously.
Anyway, why did I bring this scene up on my blog?
Well, I was thinking about this particular scene as I ate my prawn and chicken salad topped with mango, kiwi, dragon fruit and strawberry toppings (so says the menu).. :D
At first, they were going through the steps, the motions, without feeling the music, the rhythm - i.e. no chemistry in the dance.
Hmm.. it just reminded me of my walk in life.
I don't dance through life alone. After accepting Christ, I'll never walk alone again. I'm with Him, He's with me all the time.
But, to be able to move in sync with Him, to enjoy the dance and the music of life, well, it's not about doing the good things, it's not only about loving others.. to feel the rhythm, it's about being in love with Him.
That's the key. The consciousness where I know that I'm in love and I know that my love is reciprocrated as long as I'm alive - here in this world, and beyond.
That's how I'm able to rest in Him, and follow His lead and enjoy the dance of life! Why, to just fall in love daily with Jesus!
Thursday, August 25, 2005
MInistry
Yesterday, I went for my Pastoral Care Ministry meeting. Sigh, it was wonderful! Felt so refreshed after Christina Wee's sharing.
We overcome with the blood of the lamb and by the word of our testimony. There's a power in that that builds us up. Whereas in the afternoon, I'm feeling blah, but really, I love going to church, to sit under anointed teaching and preaching, in blessed fellowship - I feel it is there that I am centred and stabilised. Where things suddenly becomes clear; His Word is like a lamp to my path.
It has to be sustainable. I feel that aside from going to church and CG and ministry meetings and getting so refreshed then - well, I want to be perpetually in the oasis. The oasis is in the midst of the desert (the world). I don't want to get 'dusty'. It means that I must have a lasting consciousness of Him and not simply through association with the corporate anointing. But through a personal relationship as well.
Ministry to the Lord
Do the first things first. My first ministry is to the Lord. Doing that one thing that is needful. To drink from Him for myself. To minister to Him by receiving from Him. Just sitting at His feet and receiving and receiving and drinking and drinking. His love, His love, His wisdom, His Word for they are life! to those for find them!
I've forgotten that.
It's not a matter of how much time I practically have for ministry. Time is not a factor. For the Lord will redeem my time. He multiplies it, extends it somehow.
I'm just reminded, we are called Christians. And Christ means "the Anointed". So as Christians, we are the anointed ones. Our anointing is from Jesus Christ, found in us. The life that we live, is how Jesus would live it, because it is no longer I who live but Christ who lives in me. As such, everything that I touch, there is victory.
Abba, I no longer want to guess how You are going to accomplish great things through me. I don't know how to comprehend, I don't know how You're going to do this. I just know that Your Word says that all the promises of God for me in Christ are yes and amen! And my future is bright and sure because of You.
Abba, I don't want to think too much but simply to act out the desires You have put into my heart. Not to rationalise andsee whether I can do it. I don't want to look to the left or to the right but to focus on You. How I need Your love Lord to fill me up again! I know, I KNOW that You love me with a passion! In my head, but Jesus, I want to feel it again, too, in my heart! I know we are supposed to walk by faith and not by sight. But Lord, I just believe that when I keep my eyes transfixed on You, keeping myself under the warm glow and embrace of the Son, why, then You loving write Your desires, my desires on my heart.
Ministering
Service in the different ministries should never be my own effort. I've learnt that when I do that, I tire quite easily. I've learnt that I have to first receive and receive and drink from the Lord, the living waters. The service that I render would then be out of the love I have received rather than an obligation.
Ministry is not volunteer work at all! It is an opportunity to serve the brethren whom Jesus so loved and gave of Himself to redeem! And yet, even as we serve, we serve from our overflow (not from our reservoir) and there is such beauty in serving! For the more we serve, the more we receive from the Lord. He gives us the grace to serve and when we do that, He rewards us for serving, through the grace that He has given to us in the first place! Praise God!
I've learnt so many things through serving and am looking forward to more!
I'm just reminded by Christina, that we don't have to look at ourselves and ask whether we are ready to serve or not. But to know that coming forward to serve is a step of faith, as long as you have the desire in your heart. As long as you have that desire, hey, it's Abba writing on Your heart. And He is more than able to minister to others through me. I'm only the earthern vessel, but I have the treasure, the Holy Spirit in me.
After the ministry meeting and during the fellowship yesterday, a brother was sharing this incident in the bible. And it's just, wow, the awesomeness of service.
He said in the multiplication of the 5 loaves and 2 fishes. The people there received the loaves and fishes and partook of them. But it was the 12 disciples who were distributing the loaves and fishes, they were the ones in the position to see the miracle. They were the ones being used by God. Whereas the people enjoyed the food, the disciples got to see the power of God doing great works!
I don't chase after signs and wonders, nor hanker after the great miracles that old testament prophets used to perform. For the people then saw the works of God, but did not understand His heart, and they turned from Him. I want to see Jesus revealed.
But isn't it an awesome thing to be used by the Lord in ministry? For the people are so close and precious to His heart. For having received and being conscious of His love for me andloving Him in return, how much more we desire to serve the people that He so dearly loves as well?
And in serving, there is a special position there.. I am moving closer to the heartbeat of the One I love. And I think that is so wonderful and precious to me. :)
We overcome with the blood of the lamb and by the word of our testimony. There's a power in that that builds us up. Whereas in the afternoon, I'm feeling blah, but really, I love going to church, to sit under anointed teaching and preaching, in blessed fellowship - I feel it is there that I am centred and stabilised. Where things suddenly becomes clear; His Word is like a lamp to my path.
It has to be sustainable. I feel that aside from going to church and CG and ministry meetings and getting so refreshed then - well, I want to be perpetually in the oasis. The oasis is in the midst of the desert (the world). I don't want to get 'dusty'. It means that I must have a lasting consciousness of Him and not simply through association with the corporate anointing. But through a personal relationship as well.
Ministry to the Lord
Do the first things first. My first ministry is to the Lord. Doing that one thing that is needful. To drink from Him for myself. To minister to Him by receiving from Him. Just sitting at His feet and receiving and receiving and drinking and drinking. His love, His love, His wisdom, His Word for they are life! to those for find them!
I've forgotten that.
It's not a matter of how much time I practically have for ministry. Time is not a factor. For the Lord will redeem my time. He multiplies it, extends it somehow.
I'm just reminded, we are called Christians. And Christ means "the Anointed". So as Christians, we are the anointed ones. Our anointing is from Jesus Christ, found in us. The life that we live, is how Jesus would live it, because it is no longer I who live but Christ who lives in me. As such, everything that I touch, there is victory.
Abba, I no longer want to guess how You are going to accomplish great things through me. I don't know how to comprehend, I don't know how You're going to do this. I just know that Your Word says that all the promises of God for me in Christ are yes and amen! And my future is bright and sure because of You.
Abba, I don't want to think too much but simply to act out the desires You have put into my heart. Not to rationalise andsee whether I can do it. I don't want to look to the left or to the right but to focus on You. How I need Your love Lord to fill me up again! I know, I KNOW that You love me with a passion! In my head, but Jesus, I want to feel it again, too, in my heart! I know we are supposed to walk by faith and not by sight. But Lord, I just believe that when I keep my eyes transfixed on You, keeping myself under the warm glow and embrace of the Son, why, then You loving write Your desires, my desires on my heart.
Ministering
Service in the different ministries should never be my own effort. I've learnt that when I do that, I tire quite easily. I've learnt that I have to first receive and receive and drink from the Lord, the living waters. The service that I render would then be out of the love I have received rather than an obligation.
Ministry is not volunteer work at all! It is an opportunity to serve the brethren whom Jesus so loved and gave of Himself to redeem! And yet, even as we serve, we serve from our overflow (not from our reservoir) and there is such beauty in serving! For the more we serve, the more we receive from the Lord. He gives us the grace to serve and when we do that, He rewards us for serving, through the grace that He has given to us in the first place! Praise God!
I've learnt so many things through serving and am looking forward to more!
I'm just reminded by Christina, that we don't have to look at ourselves and ask whether we are ready to serve or not. But to know that coming forward to serve is a step of faith, as long as you have the desire in your heart. As long as you have that desire, hey, it's Abba writing on Your heart. And He is more than able to minister to others through me. I'm only the earthern vessel, but I have the treasure, the Holy Spirit in me.
After the ministry meeting and during the fellowship yesterday, a brother was sharing this incident in the bible. And it's just, wow, the awesomeness of service.
He said in the multiplication of the 5 loaves and 2 fishes. The people there received the loaves and fishes and partook of them. But it was the 12 disciples who were distributing the loaves and fishes, they were the ones in the position to see the miracle. They were the ones being used by God. Whereas the people enjoyed the food, the disciples got to see the power of God doing great works!
I don't chase after signs and wonders, nor hanker after the great miracles that old testament prophets used to perform. For the people then saw the works of God, but did not understand His heart, and they turned from Him. I want to see Jesus revealed.
But isn't it an awesome thing to be used by the Lord in ministry? For the people are so close and precious to His heart. For having received and being conscious of His love for me andloving Him in return, how much more we desire to serve the people that He so dearly loves as well?
And in serving, there is a special position there.. I am moving closer to the heartbeat of the One I love. And I think that is so wonderful and precious to me. :)
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
The world and me
Hmm.. feeling a little philosophical today..
Reading Life, movies section today. A quote from directer Olivier Marchal, "Cinema is a place for people to dream. Movies should be more beautiful than life."
and recalled another quote,
from Shakespeare's As you like it
All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players:
They have their exits and their entrances;
And one man in his time plays many parts
The question is, why shouldn't life be more beautiful than the movies? Why shouldn't life be larger than life?
Imagine if we should play out our time here on earth as a stage. Afterall, we have the great Playwright FOR us, 'cos all things work together for good for those who love Him.
Do we mean it when we sing "I live to worship You"? What does it really mean?
I officially am employed again since last Sat. But after a month's hiatus, it's a little difficult to start the engine running again.
This morning, I woke up, too late for a morning meeting and felt really bad about it. Felt time is just oozing slowly past, meandering purposelessly, round and round. And I asked Abba, what happened?
I don't know about you, but sometimes I pray prayers and fear that He is not able to fulfil them - and sometimes I rather not pray. Fear is an insidious, subtle snake.
So I prayed today and dedicated today to Him, for Him to live it through me as He deems fit - my time to Him to do as He will... yet at the back of my mind, I'm thinking, "now, what do I do?"
Is surrendering everything to Him means letting go of everything, even concerns on results? Living each day with a mentality which goes, "If I perish, I perish"? It's difficult for me 'cos I want to get effective in my life to glorify God. Yet really, only God can glorify God in me, in my life. Not me.
I'm also reminded, since it's already three quarters of 2005, and looking back, I remember that it is to be a superabundant year for me as well. I'm trying to rest (what an oxymoron!) and let Him pour out His abundance so that there's not room enough to contain it.
Hmm.. do the first works. Just get absorbed again in His love for me.
A sister reminded me of this lovely song,
Amazing love, how can it be?
That You my King would die for me
Amazing love, I know it's true
It's my joy to honour You
In all I do, I honour You
I'm forgiven, because You were forsaken
I'm accepted, You were condemned
I'm alive and well, Your spirit lives within me
Because You died and rose again!
Reading Life, movies section today. A quote from directer Olivier Marchal, "Cinema is a place for people to dream. Movies should be more beautiful than life."
and recalled another quote,
from Shakespeare's As you like it
All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players:
They have their exits and their entrances;
And one man in his time plays many parts
The question is, why shouldn't life be more beautiful than the movies? Why shouldn't life be larger than life?
Imagine if we should play out our time here on earth as a stage. Afterall, we have the great Playwright FOR us, 'cos all things work together for good for those who love Him.
Do we mean it when we sing "I live to worship You"? What does it really mean?
I officially am employed again since last Sat. But after a month's hiatus, it's a little difficult to start the engine running again.
This morning, I woke up, too late for a morning meeting and felt really bad about it. Felt time is just oozing slowly past, meandering purposelessly, round and round. And I asked Abba, what happened?
I don't know about you, but sometimes I pray prayers and fear that He is not able to fulfil them - and sometimes I rather not pray. Fear is an insidious, subtle snake.
So I prayed today and dedicated today to Him, for Him to live it through me as He deems fit - my time to Him to do as He will... yet at the back of my mind, I'm thinking, "now, what do I do?"
Is surrendering everything to Him means letting go of everything, even concerns on results? Living each day with a mentality which goes, "If I perish, I perish"? It's difficult for me 'cos I want to get effective in my life to glorify God. Yet really, only God can glorify God in me, in my life. Not me.
I'm also reminded, since it's already three quarters of 2005, and looking back, I remember that it is to be a superabundant year for me as well. I'm trying to rest (what an oxymoron!) and let Him pour out His abundance so that there's not room enough to contain it.
Hmm.. do the first works. Just get absorbed again in His love for me.
A sister reminded me of this lovely song,
Amazing love, how can it be?
That You my King would die for me
Amazing love, I know it's true
It's my joy to honour You
In all I do, I honour You
I'm forgiven, because You were forsaken
I'm accepted, You were condemned
I'm alive and well, Your spirit lives within me
Because You died and rose again!
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
Just a touch
Oh.. will be quite busy this week. So gotta keep my posts short and sweet... hopefully! :)
Was serving in the nursery on Sunday. There were a few crying toddlers around. (there are no male teachers in the toddlers class)
At that age (below 2), all they know mummy isn't here anymore and they start crying. After a while, they would cry, but there were no tears in their eyes.
I take that as a sign that they are sad, but not very. They are simply expressing their disgruntment at the status quo. And some can be pretty insistent.
When I was less experienced, I was always trying so hard to convince them that everything is okay. I would try to reason with them. But toddlers don't think, they feel. (Preschoolers, 2.5-4 yrs, are more open to logic) Then, I'll try to distract them with toys, over and over again. It gets quite tiring after a while 'cos there doesn't seem to be a connection.
After some time, I finally learnt how to discern between when a tod is really sad, and when he is simply expressing his displeasure.
In the latter, he just needs reassurance. I don't need to be too 'gan cheong' and try all sort of ways.
I reassure him by touch. Sometimes, I sit him ('cos he doesn't want to be carried, still angry mah) in such a way he can lean against me if he so chooses. Then periodically, I'll stroke his arm, his forehead in reassurance, or his face, saying sometimes, "It's okay, it's okay. Matthew's a good boy. Matthew's a brave boy. Teacher loves you. Jesus loves you. Whether you're naughty or good, Jesus and mummy will always love you."
I've learnt that children, no matter how young they are, are very quick. They know when you're trying too hard. And they'll cry sometimes, all the more. Because when you're trying too hard, you're not in control, not trusting God, not resting in Him. I'm usually confident with crying babes. They just need that touch of assurance, perhaps a little distraction and a soothing voice to take their mind of mmmummmmmyyy!
Sometimes, I get too confident and rely on my experience and still the little bundle of joy wails. Then I remembered my Lord :D and cry out to Him, "Oh Lord, help me! He just can't stop crying." And sometimes, I will be led to sing in tongues to the child. It's amazing! Usually within 5 minutes, he will either stop crying or forget that he's unhappy or fall asleep! Hallelujah! :D
It's wonderful what you learn looking after babies. :)
I learnt about Abba's relationship with me, as He's taking care of me..
I've learnt about how I can approach and show care in my relationship with others. :)
Was serving in the nursery on Sunday. There were a few crying toddlers around. (there are no male teachers in the toddlers class)
At that age (below 2), all they know mummy isn't here anymore and they start crying. After a while, they would cry, but there were no tears in their eyes.
I take that as a sign that they are sad, but not very. They are simply expressing their disgruntment at the status quo. And some can be pretty insistent.
When I was less experienced, I was always trying so hard to convince them that everything is okay. I would try to reason with them. But toddlers don't think, they feel. (Preschoolers, 2.5-4 yrs, are more open to logic) Then, I'll try to distract them with toys, over and over again. It gets quite tiring after a while 'cos there doesn't seem to be a connection.
After some time, I finally learnt how to discern between when a tod is really sad, and when he is simply expressing his displeasure.
In the latter, he just needs reassurance. I don't need to be too 'gan cheong' and try all sort of ways.
I reassure him by touch. Sometimes, I sit him ('cos he doesn't want to be carried, still angry mah) in such a way he can lean against me if he so chooses. Then periodically, I'll stroke his arm, his forehead in reassurance, or his face, saying sometimes, "It's okay, it's okay. Matthew's a good boy. Matthew's a brave boy. Teacher loves you. Jesus loves you. Whether you're naughty or good, Jesus and mummy will always love you."
I've learnt that children, no matter how young they are, are very quick. They know when you're trying too hard. And they'll cry sometimes, all the more. Because when you're trying too hard, you're not in control, not trusting God, not resting in Him. I'm usually confident with crying babes. They just need that touch of assurance, perhaps a little distraction and a soothing voice to take their mind of mmmummmmmyyy!
Sometimes, I get too confident and rely on my experience and still the little bundle of joy wails. Then I remembered my Lord :D and cry out to Him, "Oh Lord, help me! He just can't stop crying." And sometimes, I will be led to sing in tongues to the child. It's amazing! Usually within 5 minutes, he will either stop crying or forget that he's unhappy or fall asleep! Hallelujah! :D
It's wonderful what you learn looking after babies. :)
I learnt about Abba's relationship with me, as He's taking care of me..
I've learnt about how I can approach and show care in my relationship with others. :)
Saturday, August 20, 2005
Treasured
An awesome buffet today! Pastor Aage through the Holy Spirit has just given me a feast this evening! When it rains, it pours! Showers of blessings! When I have more time, maybe I'll do a summary... :)
Anyway, just like to share about the worship tonight.
There was this phrase we sang, "as we lift our hearts before You, as a token of our love"
I imagined giving my heart to Him - it was red and heart-shaped with a blue bow around it...hahaha... hmm.. it's my imagination!
The bible says, we love because He first loved us.
At that moment, He said to me, "Your gift of love is so precious to me."
I didn't expect that. That He sees my love to Him as a gift, and so precious to Him.
I felt that my love isn't worth much - 'cos He is so good and beautiful, mighty, doing wonderous deeds for me, of couse He's deserving of all honour and praise and love!
But today, He told me that my love - it is not something that He takes for granted. He said that my love to Him is a gift to Him, and that it was so precious and dear to Him. He keeps me in His heart...
Amazing love. What am I that You're mindful of me? Desirous of my love? Jealous of my affections? Pursuing love that never gave up on me....
Anyway, just like to share about the worship tonight.
There was this phrase we sang, "as we lift our hearts before You, as a token of our love"
I imagined giving my heart to Him - it was red and heart-shaped with a blue bow around it...hahaha... hmm.. it's my imagination!
The bible says, we love because He first loved us.
At that moment, He said to me, "Your gift of love is so precious to me."
I didn't expect that. That He sees my love to Him as a gift, and so precious to Him.
I felt that my love isn't worth much - 'cos He is so good and beautiful, mighty, doing wonderous deeds for me, of couse He's deserving of all honour and praise and love!
But today, He told me that my love - it is not something that He takes for granted. He said that my love to Him is a gift to Him, and that it was so precious and dear to Him. He keeps me in His heart...
Amazing love. What am I that You're mindful of me? Desirous of my love? Jealous of my affections? Pursuing love that never gave up on me....
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
Flirtation and babes
hahaha :D Did the title catch your attention?
My dear serious cyberager is probably not going to put this post of his list of 'inspiring reads'.. haha :D
Flirtation
Today, we had training on mortgage loans. The trainer from the bank was.. hmm.. suave.
Wasn't a hunk, just pleasant looking. What he had going for him is charisma.. comfortable charisma of the subtle kind.
I suppose, one would call it confidence. :) In the middle of the presentation, he said, in response to something the audience said, that he was 'distracted' by one of our colleagues in front. You know, it's the kind of teasing that is done with a wink. Then later, in front of all of us, he gave her his card. :D
Hmm... that's real attractive to me.. the style that is. He expressed his interest in a manner that was witty and non-intimidating. And left the ball (dinner invitation), without a doubt, in the girl's court. No pressure at all - 'cos she can either laugh over it with her friends or she can call him and they laugh over it over dinner :D
Now that's style and confidence.
I wondered what makes style and confidence?
To me, it's a matter of a total lack of self-consciousness, of boldly making the first move and not making it a 'life or death' situation.
I remember Abba told me once that flirtation and courtship is supposed to be fun. Didn't understand what He meant initially. Think I do, a little now. He means, "lighten-up! Don't take everything so seriously." :D
Hmm.. sometimes being in church, we may tend to take relationships, especially between the sexes too seriously. But if God is guarding our heart, then we should be comfortable with him/her as a brother/sister. (Of course, also apply wisdom - there are differences when handling male/female friendships) The moment we take things too seriously is when we are trying to handle it ourselves?
I recall, quite some time back, there was a brother who seemed to like me. Sometimes, catch him looking at moi. Unfortunately, he couldn't make up his mind about me... I think... He's too serious already. Anyway, he loo-gi lah... hahaha :D
Babes
Met my friend today for lunch. She's a sister and ex-colleague too.
My first thought upon seeing her after 3 months (she was getting married then) was, boy she has put on so much weight, she looks pregnant!... waitaminute, is she pregnant??? What if she's not and I ask.. then like I'm calling her fat.. tact, tact, tact...
So I came up with a lame, "Eh.. did anything happen since I last saw you?"
"Yes, of course!"
"You're pregnant???"
"Yes..." (read duh..) :)
A woman in love is beautiful. A pregnant babe (a babe in a babe :D) is doubly so - got Abba's love, hubby's love and loving baby. She just glows with satisfaction! :D
Now, this dear sister is 2 years younger than moi, just got married 3 months ago, and expecting a babe already!
If I weren't so secure in Christ and if I weren't so convinced I'm a daughter of Sarah (1 Peter 3:6), I believe by this time, I'll be hearing some ticking going on... :D
Praise God! The biological clock is spoilt!
Two kings wanted Sarah in her old age. And the bible describes Sarah as beautiful!
We, daughters of the Most High, when we become pregnant, we simply switch titles. From being a babe to one hot mama! Hallelujah!
My dear serious cyberager is probably not going to put this post of his list of 'inspiring reads'.. haha :D
Flirtation
Today, we had training on mortgage loans. The trainer from the bank was.. hmm.. suave.
Wasn't a hunk, just pleasant looking. What he had going for him is charisma.. comfortable charisma of the subtle kind.
I suppose, one would call it confidence. :) In the middle of the presentation, he said, in response to something the audience said, that he was 'distracted' by one of our colleagues in front. You know, it's the kind of teasing that is done with a wink. Then later, in front of all of us, he gave her his card. :D
Hmm... that's real attractive to me.. the style that is. He expressed his interest in a manner that was witty and non-intimidating. And left the ball (dinner invitation), without a doubt, in the girl's court. No pressure at all - 'cos she can either laugh over it with her friends or she can call him and they laugh over it over dinner :D
Now that's style and confidence.
I wondered what makes style and confidence?
To me, it's a matter of a total lack of self-consciousness, of boldly making the first move and not making it a 'life or death' situation.
I remember Abba told me once that flirtation and courtship is supposed to be fun. Didn't understand what He meant initially. Think I do, a little now. He means, "lighten-up! Don't take everything so seriously." :D
Hmm.. sometimes being in church, we may tend to take relationships, especially between the sexes too seriously. But if God is guarding our heart, then we should be comfortable with him/her as a brother/sister. (Of course, also apply wisdom - there are differences when handling male/female friendships) The moment we take things too seriously is when we are trying to handle it ourselves?
I recall, quite some time back, there was a brother who seemed to like me. Sometimes, catch him looking at moi. Unfortunately, he couldn't make up his mind about me... I think..
Babes
Met my friend today for lunch. She's a sister and ex-colleague too.
My first thought upon seeing her after 3 months (she was getting married then) was, boy she has put on so much weight, she looks pregnant!... waitaminute, is she pregnant??? What if she's not and I ask.. then like I'm calling her fat.. tact, tact, tact...
So I came up with a lame, "Eh.. did anything happen since I last saw you?"
"Yes, of course!"
"You're pregnant???"
"Yes..." (read duh..) :)
A woman in love is beautiful. A pregnant babe (a babe in a babe :D) is doubly so - got Abba's love, hubby's love and loving baby. She just glows with satisfaction! :D
Now, this dear sister is 2 years younger than moi, just got married 3 months ago, and expecting a babe already!
If I weren't so secure in Christ and if I weren't so convinced I'm a daughter of Sarah (1 Peter 3:6), I believe by this time, I'll be hearing some ticking going on... :D
Praise God! The biological clock is spoilt!
Two kings wanted Sarah in her old age. And the bible describes Sarah as beautiful!
We, daughters of the Most High, when we become pregnant, we simply switch titles. From being a babe to one hot mama! Hallelujah!
Getting personal
I can't believe how good He is to me! Everytime, man, I'm telling you, everytime, I go to Sunday service, bible study, or caregroup, He just have something for me.
Just got back from CG meeting, waiting for my hair to dry. :D These are the notes I jotted down in my notebook tonight. Be blessed! :)
Beloved, I wish above all things that you prosper and be in health, even as your soul prospers. (3 John 2)
Question: How do I respond to trials?
1. See it as bread (lo-ti). Yum :) Remember, I have already won. My victory is in His finished work.
2. Seeing the good at the end - having such a consciousness of God's love and hence, the certainty of His promises, allows me to walk the journey, bumpy as it may be.
3. Learning to enjoy 'the pits' - 'cos when I can't get any lower, any move must be from God! I would even venture to say, God must move!
4. Keep myself in the love of God
Question: How to made God's love a reality in my life?
1. PERSONAL DRINKING
Remember Mary? One thing is needful - to sit at His feet. Mary drank the living waters for herself. (nowhere else did Jesus mention any other thing being needful, except that one thing)
The love of God is TORRENTIAL, it pours! Never ceasing! This is His love for mmeeeee!
Analogy of water creating a dent in concrete...
That which has impact, is the constant focus of water of the floor.
Consistently personalise God's love. It seems like I'm the only one that Jesus loves.
Don't just say, yes, yes, God loves the world and the flowers and the bees 'cos He is love.. no, no, no! God loves YOU. 'cos it's true, God loves YOU! And you know what? It's with a PASSION.
How do I know God loves me passionately?
I look to the cross. To His death. His manner of death. That's how much He loves me!
How can I 'feel' His love?
Personalise worship. Singing with my heart. It's not just words. During worship, it is God engaging me. It's not "we worship", it's "I worship", not "our lives", it's "my life", not "loves us", it's "love me".
Attend service like I've never heard it before. With an expectation to receive. With thanksgiving in my heart 'cos I know that He is gonna feed me real well. That He has already anointed the leaders over me 'cos He loves me!
When I have the consciousness of His personal love, the way I perceive circumstances will be different and because of my consciousness and my perception, my circumstances will change to reflect His love and glory in my life!
He lives in my life. I serve a living God!
He is the lamb upon the throne in my life. He is exalted in my life!
LET the love flow inside.
2. GIVING helps us to be conscious of God's love
Litmus test :D To the extent you know how much God loves you is how much of other people's nonsense you can take.
There is now, no condemnation, even self-condemnation, in Christ.
Go out with peace, led forth with joy!
When you think you've 'lost' the first love, do the first works. i.e. do whatever reminds you of His love.
God' love changes my countenance! (Better than any makeover, shopping, make-up, slimming programmes can ever do.. :D)
If people don't love me, they 'loo-gi'.
Be a child to the Father.
Like children, carefree! Have you seen children enjoying the fountain (check out the one at Bugis) - no self-consciousness at all! The only consciousness I want to have is Abba's love for me!
Once I am more conscious of myself as constantly, the beloved, the spiritual forces start to bow to me as a spiritual authority. The spiritual atmosphere will change and hence, the natural atmosphere too.
It is not how much scripture I know, it is how much I am convinced in my heart that Abba loves me.
The love of God is a heart message.
Heart-revelation.
When you're conscious of His love, you make meaning out of everything. I find Abba talking to me out of everyday experiences - relationships, circumstances.. etc
When I'm conscious of His love, I won't settle for mediocrity.
Just got back from CG meeting, waiting for my hair to dry. :D These are the notes I jotted down in my notebook tonight. Be blessed! :)
Beloved, I wish above all things that you prosper and be in health, even as your soul prospers. (3 John 2)
Question: How do I respond to trials?
1. See it as bread (lo-ti). Yum :) Remember, I have already won. My victory is in His finished work.
2. Seeing the good at the end - having such a consciousness of God's love and hence, the certainty of His promises, allows me to walk the journey, bumpy as it may be.
3. Learning to enjoy 'the pits' - 'cos when I can't get any lower, any move must be from God! I would even venture to say, God must move!
4. Keep myself in the love of God
Question: How to made God's love a reality in my life?
1. PERSONAL DRINKING
Remember Mary? One thing is needful - to sit at His feet. Mary drank the living waters for herself. (nowhere else did Jesus mention any other thing being needful, except that one thing)
The love of God is TORRENTIAL, it pours! Never ceasing! This is His love for mmeeeee!
Analogy of water creating a dent in concrete...
That which has impact, is the constant focus of water of the floor.
Consistently personalise God's love. It seems like I'm the only one that Jesus loves.
Don't just say, yes, yes, God loves the world and the flowers and the bees 'cos He is love.. no, no, no! God loves YOU. 'cos it's true, God loves YOU! And you know what? It's with a PASSION.
How do I know God loves me passionately?
I look to the cross. To His death. His manner of death. That's how much He loves me!
How can I 'feel' His love?
Personalise worship. Singing with my heart. It's not just words. During worship, it is God engaging me. It's not "we worship", it's "I worship", not "our lives", it's "my life", not "loves us", it's "love me".
Attend service like I've never heard it before. With an expectation to receive. With thanksgiving in my heart 'cos I know that He is gonna feed me real well. That He has already anointed the leaders over me 'cos He loves me!
When I have the consciousness of His personal love, the way I perceive circumstances will be different and because of my consciousness and my perception, my circumstances will change to reflect His love and glory in my life!
He lives in my life. I serve a living God!
He is the lamb upon the throne in my life. He is exalted in my life!
LET the love flow inside.
2. GIVING helps us to be conscious of God's love
Litmus test :D To the extent you know how much God loves you is how much of other people's nonsense you can take.
There is now, no condemnation, even self-condemnation, in Christ.
Go out with peace, led forth with joy!
When you think you've 'lost' the first love, do the first works. i.e. do whatever reminds you of His love.
God' love changes my countenance! (Better than any makeover, shopping, make-up, slimming programmes can ever do.. :D)
If people don't love me, they 'loo-gi'.
Be a child to the Father.
Like children, carefree! Have you seen children enjoying the fountain (check out the one at Bugis) - no self-consciousness at all! The only consciousness I want to have is Abba's love for me!
Once I am more conscious of myself as constantly, the beloved, the spiritual forces start to bow to me as a spiritual authority. The spiritual atmosphere will change and hence, the natural atmosphere too.
It is not how much scripture I know, it is how much I am convinced in my heart that Abba loves me.
The love of God is a heart message.
Heart-revelation.
When you're conscious of His love, you make meaning out of everything. I find Abba talking to me out of everyday experiences - relationships, circumstances.. etc
When I'm conscious of His love, I won't settle for mediocrity.
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
Gazing steadily
This song came to me just now, like a gentle reminder :)
Turn your eyes upon Jesus
Look full in His wonderful face
and the things of the world will grow strangely dim
in the light of His glory and grace
Turn your eyes upon Jesus
Look full in His wonderful face
and the things of the world will grow strangely dim
in the light of His glory and grace
Monday, August 15, 2005
Knowing my rights
Pastor Aage Aleskjar preached this Sunday from, praise God! The dear book of Galatians! My goodness, it's been a long time since I read Galatians - I was too enamoured over Romans :D
Romans and Galatians - the truths of the new covenant.
Galatians 4:21-28
Tell me, you who desire to be under the law, do you not hear the law? For it is written that Abraham had two sons: the one by a bondwoman, the other by a freewoman.
So here, the bondwoman is Hagar and the freewoman is Sarah. See below
But he who was of the bondwoman was born according to the flesh, and he of the freewoman through promise, which things are symbolic.
Paul made typology Kosher. The old testament is the new testament hidden.
What is according to the flesh? And according to promise?
Well, God promised Abraham a son with Sarah - that was His promise, His Word.
But Abraham and Sarah couldn't wait and decided to 'help God along'. So Abraham and Hagar had Ischmael the natural way. The word 'flesh' is symbolic. The opposite of promise, is self-effort (taking God out of the equation)
For these are the two covenants: the one from Mount Sinai which gives birth to bondage, which is Hagar— for this Hagar is Mount Sinai in Arabia, and corresponds to Jerusalem which now is, and is in bondage with her children— but the Jerusalem above is free, which is the mother of us all.
Mt Sinai is where the 10 Commandments were given. The covenant of law.
And look what the Word says! It gives birth to bondage. (Let us not use our human logic to interpret the clear words of the bible.)
For it is written:
“ Rejoice, O barren,
You who do not bear!
Break forth and shout,
You who are not in labor!
For the desolate has many more children
Than she who has a husband.”
Now we, brethren, as Isaac was, are children of promise.
So remember, we are as Isaac, children of promise - living by the promises of God!
We are not children of Hagar, living by the blessings and cursings of the law!
Not I say one, bible say one! (This book is written after the cross - if it means anything to thee... :) think on that! )
But, as he who was born according to the flesh then persecuted him who was born according to the Spirit, even so it is now.
Sad, but true.
Nevertheless what does the Scripture say? “Cast out the bondwoman and her son, for the son of the bondwoman shall not be heir with the son of the freewoman.”
This is actually what Sarah said. And God agreed with her 'cos He caused the Holy Spirit to write these words down through Paul.
And what does it say? CAST OUT! No ifs, no buts about it. No such thing as, 'yes, we're saved through grace, but we need the law to live in holiness' - where? where? did the bible say that?
The Word is spirit-inspired. It NEVERS contradicts. So then, one guideline in biblical interpretation. Never use obscure verses to interpret what is clear in the Word.
I get pretty annoyed with some preachers who hit God's people over the head with an outdated covenant.
So then, brethren, we are not children of the bondwoman but of the free.
Amen!
Another interesting verse:
What does the bible say about the 10 commandments?
Note that in this passage, the spirit and the law are opposites.
2 Corinthians 3:2-17
You are our epistle written in our hearts, known and read by all men; clearly you are an epistle of Christ, ministered by us, written not with ink but by the Spirit of the living God, not on tablets of stone but on tablets of flesh, that is, of the heart. (ref also Hebrews 8 - He writes His laws on our hearts)
And we have such trust through Christ toward God. Not that we are sufficient of ourselves to think of anything as being from ourselves, but our sufficiency is from God, who also made us sufficient as ministers of the new covenant, not of the letter but of the Spirit; for the letter kills, but the Spirit gives life.
But if the ministry of death, written and engraved on stones, was glorious, so that the children of Israel could not look steadily at the face of Moses because of the glory of his countenance, which glory was passing away, how will the ministry of the Spirit not be more glorious?
For if the ministry of condemnation had glory, the ministry of righteousness exceeds much more in glory. For even what was made glorious had no glory in this respect, because of the glory that excels. For if what is passing away was glorious, what remains is much more glorious.
Therefore, since we have such hope, we use great boldness of speech— unlike Moses, who put a veil over his face so that the children of Israel could not look steadily at the end of what was passing away.
But their minds were blinded. For until this day the same veil remains unlifted in the reading of the Old Testament, because the veil is taken away in Christ. But even to this day, when Moses is read, a veil lies on their heart. Nevertheless when one turns to the Lord, the veil is taken away.
Now the Lord is the Spirit; and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty.
Romans and Galatians - the truths of the new covenant.
Galatians 4:21-28
Tell me, you who desire to be under the law, do you not hear the law? For it is written that Abraham had two sons: the one by a bondwoman, the other by a freewoman.
So here, the bondwoman is Hagar and the freewoman is Sarah. See below
But he who was of the bondwoman was born according to the flesh, and he of the freewoman through promise, which things are symbolic.
Paul made typology Kosher. The old testament is the new testament hidden.
What is according to the flesh? And according to promise?
Well, God promised Abraham a son with Sarah - that was His promise, His Word.
But Abraham and Sarah couldn't wait and decided to 'help God along'. So Abraham and Hagar had Ischmael the natural way. The word 'flesh' is symbolic. The opposite of promise, is self-effort (taking God out of the equation)
For these are the two covenants: the one from Mount Sinai which gives birth to bondage, which is Hagar— for this Hagar is Mount Sinai in Arabia, and corresponds to Jerusalem which now is, and is in bondage with her children— but the Jerusalem above is free, which is the mother of us all.
Mt Sinai is where the 10 Commandments were given. The covenant of law.
And look what the Word says! It gives birth to bondage. (Let us not use our human logic to interpret the clear words of the bible.)
For it is written:
“ Rejoice, O barren,
You who do not bear!
Break forth and shout,
You who are not in labor!
For the desolate has many more children
Than she who has a husband.”
Now we, brethren, as Isaac was, are children of promise.
So remember, we are as Isaac, children of promise - living by the promises of God!
We are not children of Hagar, living by the blessings and cursings of the law!
Not I say one, bible say one! (This book is written after the cross - if it means anything to thee... :) think on that! )
But, as he who was born according to the flesh then persecuted him who was born according to the Spirit, even so it is now.
Sad, but true.
Nevertheless what does the Scripture say? “Cast out the bondwoman and her son, for the son of the bondwoman shall not be heir with the son of the freewoman.”
This is actually what Sarah said. And God agreed with her 'cos He caused the Holy Spirit to write these words down through Paul.
And what does it say? CAST OUT! No ifs, no buts about it. No such thing as, 'yes, we're saved through grace, but we need the law to live in holiness' - where? where? did the bible say that?
The Word is spirit-inspired. It NEVERS contradicts. So then, one guideline in biblical interpretation. Never use obscure verses to interpret what is clear in the Word.
I get pretty annoyed with some preachers who hit God's people over the head with an outdated covenant.
So then, brethren, we are not children of the bondwoman but of the free.
Amen!
Another interesting verse:
What does the bible say about the 10 commandments?
Note that in this passage, the spirit and the law are opposites.
2 Corinthians 3:2-17
You are our epistle written in our hearts, known and read by all men; clearly you are an epistle of Christ, ministered by us, written not with ink but by the Spirit of the living God, not on tablets of stone but on tablets of flesh, that is, of the heart. (ref also Hebrews 8 - He writes His laws on our hearts)
And we have such trust through Christ toward God. Not that we are sufficient of ourselves to think of anything as being from ourselves, but our sufficiency is from God, who also made us sufficient as ministers of the new covenant, not of the letter but of the Spirit; for the letter kills, but the Spirit gives life.
But if the ministry of death, written and engraved on stones, was glorious, so that the children of Israel could not look steadily at the face of Moses because of the glory of his countenance, which glory was passing away, how will the ministry of the Spirit not be more glorious?
For if the ministry of condemnation had glory, the ministry of righteousness exceeds much more in glory. For even what was made glorious had no glory in this respect, because of the glory that excels. For if what is passing away was glorious, what remains is much more glorious.
Therefore, since we have such hope, we use great boldness of speech— unlike Moses, who put a veil over his face so that the children of Israel could not look steadily at the end of what was passing away.
But their minds were blinded. For until this day the same veil remains unlifted in the reading of the Old Testament, because the veil is taken away in Christ. But even to this day, when Moses is read, a veil lies on their heart. Nevertheless when one turns to the Lord, the veil is taken away.
Now the Lord is the Spirit; and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty.
Alive!
So blessed! I can't contain it!
So much! I've got to give it away!
Your love, has taught me to live now
You are, more than enough for me!
and yesterday, I was also cruising to Bon Jovi...
It's my life! It's now or never
I ain't gonna be on earth forever!
I'm just gonna live a life alive!
It's my life!
My heart is like an open highway
I thank my God, I did it His way!
I just wanna live a life alive!
hahaha :D modified the lyrics a little to make it kosher.. :)
How am I feeling now? Exhilerated, exuberant! Even though it's a Monday...
Or at least, until I got to office. Then I had to bottle it all up... it's like I'm bursting with the good news and joy of the Lord but no one to share it with.. urgh!
And of yes, I'm in love! Afresh!
Remember my post a while back titled 'Crush'?
Well... I'm dating someONE.. grin.. decided to take my own advice. :) And it's someONE you all know... His name is.. Jesus!
Actually, I started dating Him sometime back already. That's why a few weeks back I began dressing up.. not hiao lah.. okay, a little! But hey, you dress up for the one you love right?
On Saturday, we went to check out HMV - that's when I succumbed, and bought my Bon Jovi 'live in concert' CD as well as L'arc-en-ciel (best hits of 1998-2000). I struggled, a little, with my decision, 'cos these are rock bands and I thought, not very 'christiany'..
Quite nostalgic listening to all these songs... before Abba found me again, I liked Linkin Park and Matchbox 20. I find rock music pretty catharic. Of course, I outgrew Linkin Park, still like Rob Thomas - but mostly for rock, it depends more on the songs than the artist. :)
Someone once wrote (paraphrasing), "As long as you are passionately in love with God, you can do whatever you want."
Hope there are no religious spirits reading this blog! haha :D So just in case, read Hebrews 8 - He writes His laws on our hearts.
Yes, our hearts are desperately wicked. But did not God say that He'll remove our stony heart and give us one of flesh? (Ezekiel 11:19)
The other day when we went to FOP, Hillsong was singing this song that particularly moved me... I felt like a giddy 'fan', couldn't keep His name off my lips!
My Jesus, My Saviour,
Redeemer, that's what You are to me..
You fill me, complete me,
My Jesus, that's what You are...
There's no other like You
There's no one besides You
You're more than my heart can contain!
So much! I've got to give it away!
Your love, has taught me to live now
You are, more than enough for me!
and yesterday, I was also cruising to Bon Jovi...
It's my life! It's now or never
I ain't gonna be on earth forever!
I'm just gonna live a life alive!
It's my life!
My heart is like an open highway
I thank my God, I did it His way!
I just wanna live a life alive!
hahaha :D modified the lyrics a little to make it kosher.. :)
How am I feeling now? Exhilerated, exuberant! Even though it's a Monday...
Or at least, until I got to office. Then I had to bottle it all up... it's like I'm bursting with the good news and joy of the Lord but no one to share it with.. urgh!
And of yes, I'm in love! Afresh!
Remember my post a while back titled 'Crush'?
Well... I'm dating someONE.. grin.. decided to take my own advice. :) And it's someONE you all know... His name is.. Jesus!
Actually, I started dating Him sometime back already. That's why a few weeks back I began dressing up.. not hiao lah.. okay, a little! But hey, you dress up for the one you love right?
On Saturday, we went to check out HMV - that's when I succumbed, and bought my Bon Jovi 'live in concert' CD as well as L'arc-en-ciel (best hits of 1998-2000). I struggled, a little, with my decision, 'cos these are rock bands and I thought, not very 'christiany'..
Quite nostalgic listening to all these songs... before Abba found me again, I liked Linkin Park and Matchbox 20. I find rock music pretty catharic. Of course, I outgrew Linkin Park, still like Rob Thomas - but mostly for rock, it depends more on the songs than the artist. :)
Someone once wrote (paraphrasing), "As long as you are passionately in love with God, you can do whatever you want."
Hope there are no religious spirits reading this blog! haha :D So just in case, read Hebrews 8 - He writes His laws on our hearts.
Yes, our hearts are desperately wicked. But did not God say that He'll remove our stony heart and give us one of flesh? (Ezekiel 11:19)
The other day when we went to FOP, Hillsong was singing this song that particularly moved me... I felt like a giddy 'fan', couldn't keep His name off my lips!
My Jesus, My Saviour,
Redeemer, that's what You are to me..
You fill me, complete me,
My Jesus, that's what You are...
There's no other like You
There's no one besides You
You're more than my heart can contain!
Saturday, August 13, 2005
enjoying the little things...
Tonight, I chilled out with my girlfriends out at Holland V.
We caught up with each other's life, shared funny incidents over work, gossiped over our ex-classmates, discussed the make-up of the Singaporean male, admired each other's clothes and style, touched a little on shopping, waxed lyrical over desert and calories and still ordered anyway.
Oh, cool.
We talked about our friends getting married, having babies; about us being one day, Godmothers to our future children, trying to think on good places to eat, discussed gender differences and how clothes maketh the man, or not.. haha :D
It was really nice to see how we have changed and blossom.. and it was great that we still talked with dry wit, delighting in a somewhat skeptical view of life, falling over in bursts of unabashed laughter and mutual admiration - basically it was hmm.. a chick, chic night out.
We caught up with each other's life, shared funny incidents over work, gossiped over our ex-classmates, discussed the make-up of the Singaporean male, admired each other's clothes and style, touched a little on shopping, waxed lyrical over desert and calories and still ordered anyway.
Oh, cool.
We talked about our friends getting married, having babies; about us being one day, Godmothers to our future children, trying to think on good places to eat, discussed gender differences and how clothes maketh the man, or not.. haha :D
It was really nice to see how we have changed and blossom.. and it was great that we still talked with dry wit, delighting in a somewhat skeptical view of life, falling over in bursts of unabashed laughter and mutual admiration - basically it was hmm.. a chick, chic night out.
Friday, August 12, 2005
Identification
Wow, had a wonderful time at bible study tonight!
Pastor Prince is away at Jakarta for a Pastors and Leaders meeting - I'm so glad we get to 'tithe' our pastor out so that He can be a blessing to the nations.
And praise God! You know, Abba is so good! He will anoint every leader that He puts over us, to minister to us, giving us words of exultation and feeding us with His truths and just refreshing us with His love - and He anoints them, why? Because He loves us so much.
Well, tonight we had awesome time with Deaconess Lian preaching.
The issue tonight is how to get from hearing (the Word, testimonies) to HAVING them.
Biblical references:
Leviticus 1:3-9 (the burnt offering)
Exodus 33:18-22 (God shows Moses His glory)
Judges 6:1-16 (Midianites oppress Israel)
Judges 7:9-15 (God reassures Gideon with a dream)
Judges 7:15-20 (Attack on the Midianites)
Deaconess Lian started off with a hebrew lesson. She said that the word 'sin' and 'sin offering' has the same word - 'chatta'ah '
That is, Christ on the cross - He who knew no sin became sin for us. He is our sin offering and on the cross, He became sin. He so 'identified' with our sin and that is why 'sin' and 'sin offering' are one word.
In Leviticus 1:4
Then he shall put his hand on the head of the burnt offering, and it will be accepted on his behalf to make atonement for him.
All whole procedure of offering matters nought (i.e. killing the bull, sprinkling ot he blood, skinning the burnt offering) if he does not first lay hands on the bull.
Why? The male bull without blemish is a picture of Jesus Christ. The bull is killed to make atonement for the man's sins. When he lays his hands, he exchanges his sins for its perfection. Now the bull, the sin offering becomes 'sin'.
Hence similarly, we identify ourselves IN Christ. We are His righteousness - I identify with the finished work for Jesus was made nothing so that I can become the rightousness of God in Christ.
It is not Christ, the hope of glory.
It is Christ in you, the hope of glory.
As long as you see Christ 'out there' apart from yourself, it avails nothing. When Christ is in you, then there's glory.
But what is the glory of the Lord?
Moses asked this very question. And look at God's answer and see His goodness!
And he said, “Please, show me Your glory.”
Then He said, “I will make all My goodness pass before you, and I will proclaim the name of the LORD before you. I will be gracious to whom I will be gracious, and I will have compassion on whom I will have compassion.” Exodus 33:18-19
His glory is His goodness! Wow!
Imagine, when we talk and sing about glorifying the Lord... actually, what can we, mere earthern vessels do to glorify the Lord of glory?
But Hallelujah! Since God's glory is His goodness, God is GLORIFIED when His goodness is seen in our lives!
And His goodness is freely given! It is not something that we can earn by our good works... He will be gracious and compassionate to whom He will be gracious and compassionate to.
But hey, God IS Love. And I am His covenant child and He loves me! He sends His beloved son, Jesus Christ, to die on the cross for me. He has already given me His best, O how can He not be gracious and compassionate to me? I am His darling daughter! :D
God goes on later to say in v22,
So it shall be, while My glory passes by, that I will put you in the cleft of the rock, and will cover you with My hand while I pass by.
Note, where are we when His glory passes by? In the cleft of the rock. In Christ Jesus!
Christ in me and I in Christ - we are one! Identified together!
Remember the prayer that Jesus prayed? (John 17:20-26)
“I do not pray for these alone, but also for those who will believe in Me through their word; that they all may be one, as You, Father, are in Me, and I in You; that they also may be one in Us, that the world may believe that You sent Me.
And the glory which You gave Me I have given them, that they may be one just as We are one: I in them, and You in Me; that they may be made perfect in one, and that the world may know that You have sent Me, and have loved them as You have loved Me.
“Father, I desire that they also whom You gave Me may be with Me where I am, that they may behold My glory which You have given Me; for You loved Me before the foundation of the world. O righteous Father! The world has not known You, but I have known You; and these have known that You sent Me. And I have declared to them Your name, and will declare it, that the love with which You loved Me may be in them, and I in them.”
Actually, Jesus said a lot of things here.. so lovely to meditate on.. do you see His heart?
Then Deaconess Lian shared the story of Gideon (Judges 6:1-16)
Note this verse 14
Then the LORD turned to him and said, “Go in this might of yours, and you shall save Israel from the hand of the Midianites. Have I not sent you?”
Hmm.. the Lord did not say, "Go in this might on mine" but "yours"
It is Gideon's might? But Gideon was not mighty. Why did He say that?
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. (Philippians 4:13)
I am doing it, yet it is not I, but I through Jesus Christ!
But I thought, this is the old testament, and Christ has not yet died.
Isn't it all the more 'strange' that the Lord would say "in this might of yours"?
But I noted, that God said that because in verse 16, He says, "Surely I will be with you."
How much more, we as covenant children today, with the Holy Spirit indwelling us?
Every problem and obstacle we have is HIM-possible, in Christ!
Yes, we look on, we focus on Jesus Christ. The answer to every problem is a revelation of Jesus Christ.
AND
Identification! To reiterate - the bible does not say, Christ, the hope of glory.
It is Christ IN you, the hope of glory! Oh, let that be a revelation in my heart. Let me not look at the beauties and perfection of Jesus as something outward, but to know that Abba has placed the spirit of Christ IN me. That the beautiful Jesus, the righteousness of God is not someone to admire outwardly, but to REALISE that it is inwardly.
Let's RETREAT into God and IDENTIFY in Him.
Christ has been made unto us wisdom, power and righteousness from God.
Oh Abba, help me daily, to identify that it is Christ who lives in me. That He is made unto me everything that I'll ever want or need in my life. He is the power of God within me - O glorify Your name through me. Pour out your goodness and blessings - did not Your Word say that blessings are on the head of the righteous? And I am the rightousness of God in Christ!
Let me know daily, Abba, that I have died to self, and the life that I live, I live to Christ. That glorifying You Lord, is not my work and anything I can ever do, but only through Your spirit who lives within me - guiding me, teaching me all things..
I love You 'cos You are so patient with me and You have changed me so much through all the months. You've opened my eyes and restored to me so many of Your beautiful truths. Lord, daily, I hunger to know You more.. of knowing also, how right You have made me in Christ. And I thank You for that hunger! I thank You for loving me so much! Your love gives me the strength; Your love embraces me.. Oh Jesus, You love me like nobody can! I love you so! :)))))! You make me smile Lord!
Pastor Prince is away at Jakarta for a Pastors and Leaders meeting - I'm so glad we get to 'tithe' our pastor out so that He can be a blessing to the nations.
And praise God! You know, Abba is so good! He will anoint every leader that He puts over us, to minister to us, giving us words of exultation and feeding us with His truths and just refreshing us with His love - and He anoints them, why? Because He loves us so much.
Well, tonight we had awesome time with Deaconess Lian preaching.
The issue tonight is how to get from hearing (the Word, testimonies) to HAVING them.
Biblical references:
Leviticus 1:3-9 (the burnt offering)
Exodus 33:18-22 (God shows Moses His glory)
Judges 6:1-16 (Midianites oppress Israel)
Judges 7:9-15 (God reassures Gideon with a dream)
Judges 7:15-20 (Attack on the Midianites)
Deaconess Lian started off with a hebrew lesson. She said that the word 'sin' and 'sin offering' has the same word - 'chatta'ah '
That is, Christ on the cross - He who knew no sin became sin for us. He is our sin offering and on the cross, He became sin. He so 'identified' with our sin and that is why 'sin' and 'sin offering' are one word.
In Leviticus 1:4
Then he shall put his hand on the head of the burnt offering, and it will be accepted on his behalf to make atonement for him.
All whole procedure of offering matters nought (i.e. killing the bull, sprinkling ot he blood, skinning the burnt offering) if he does not first lay hands on the bull.
Why? The male bull without blemish is a picture of Jesus Christ. The bull is killed to make atonement for the man's sins. When he lays his hands, he exchanges his sins for its perfection. Now the bull, the sin offering becomes 'sin'.
Hence similarly, we identify ourselves IN Christ. We are His righteousness - I identify with the finished work for Jesus was made nothing so that I can become the rightousness of God in Christ.
It is not Christ, the hope of glory.
It is Christ in you, the hope of glory.
As long as you see Christ 'out there' apart from yourself, it avails nothing. When Christ is in you, then there's glory.
But what is the glory of the Lord?
Moses asked this very question. And look at God's answer and see His goodness!
And he said, “Please, show me Your glory.”
Then He said, “I will make all My goodness pass before you, and I will proclaim the name of the LORD before you. I will be gracious to whom I will be gracious, and I will have compassion on whom I will have compassion.” Exodus 33:18-19
His glory is His goodness! Wow!
Imagine, when we talk and sing about glorifying the Lord... actually, what can we, mere earthern vessels do to glorify the Lord of glory?
But Hallelujah! Since God's glory is His goodness, God is GLORIFIED when His goodness is seen in our lives!
And His goodness is freely given! It is not something that we can earn by our good works... He will be gracious and compassionate to whom He will be gracious and compassionate to.
But hey, God IS Love. And I am His covenant child and He loves me! He sends His beloved son, Jesus Christ, to die on the cross for me. He has already given me His best, O how can He not be gracious and compassionate to me? I am His darling daughter! :D
God goes on later to say in v22,
So it shall be, while My glory passes by, that I will put you in the cleft of the rock, and will cover you with My hand while I pass by.
Note, where are we when His glory passes by? In the cleft of the rock. In Christ Jesus!
Christ in me and I in Christ - we are one! Identified together!
Remember the prayer that Jesus prayed? (John 17:20-26)
“I do not pray for these alone, but also for those who will believe in Me through their word; that they all may be one, as You, Father, are in Me, and I in You; that they also may be one in Us, that the world may believe that You sent Me.
And the glory which You gave Me I have given them, that they may be one just as We are one: I in them, and You in Me; that they may be made perfect in one, and that the world may know that You have sent Me, and have loved them as You have loved Me.
“Father, I desire that they also whom You gave Me may be with Me where I am, that they may behold My glory which You have given Me; for You loved Me before the foundation of the world. O righteous Father! The world has not known You, but I have known You; and these have known that You sent Me. And I have declared to them Your name, and will declare it, that the love with which You loved Me may be in them, and I in them.”
Actually, Jesus said a lot of things here.. so lovely to meditate on.. do you see His heart?
Then Deaconess Lian shared the story of Gideon (Judges 6:1-16)
Note this verse 14
Then the LORD turned to him and said, “Go in this might of yours, and you shall save Israel from the hand of the Midianites. Have I not sent you?”
Hmm.. the Lord did not say, "Go in this might on mine" but "yours"
It is Gideon's might? But Gideon was not mighty. Why did He say that?
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. (Philippians 4:13)
I am doing it, yet it is not I, but I through Jesus Christ!
But I thought, this is the old testament, and Christ has not yet died.
Isn't it all the more 'strange' that the Lord would say "in this might of yours"?
But I noted, that God said that because in verse 16, He says, "Surely I will be with you."
How much more, we as covenant children today, with the Holy Spirit indwelling us?
Every problem and obstacle we have is HIM-possible, in Christ!
Yes, we look on, we focus on Jesus Christ. The answer to every problem is a revelation of Jesus Christ.
AND
Identification! To reiterate - the bible does not say, Christ, the hope of glory.
It is Christ IN you, the hope of glory! Oh, let that be a revelation in my heart. Let me not look at the beauties and perfection of Jesus as something outward, but to know that Abba has placed the spirit of Christ IN me. That the beautiful Jesus, the righteousness of God is not someone to admire outwardly, but to REALISE that it is inwardly.
Let's RETREAT into God and IDENTIFY in Him.
Christ has been made unto us wisdom, power and righteousness from God.
Oh Abba, help me daily, to identify that it is Christ who lives in me. That He is made unto me everything that I'll ever want or need in my life. He is the power of God within me - O glorify Your name through me. Pour out your goodness and blessings - did not Your Word say that blessings are on the head of the righteous? And I am the rightousness of God in Christ!
Let me know daily, Abba, that I have died to self, and the life that I live, I live to Christ. That glorifying You Lord, is not my work and anything I can ever do, but only through Your spirit who lives within me - guiding me, teaching me all things..
I love You 'cos You are so patient with me and You have changed me so much through all the months. You've opened my eyes and restored to me so many of Your beautiful truths. Lord, daily, I hunger to know You more.. of knowing also, how right You have made me in Christ. And I thank You for that hunger! I thank You for loving me so much! Your love gives me the strength; Your love embraces me.. Oh Jesus, You love me like nobody can! I love you so! :)))))! You make me smile Lord!
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