Here I am

I know that I have a destiny. But sometimes, I feel like I'm resisting Him.

I feel like I'm called for business. And He has surrounded me with people like Aunt J and favour with the management to mentor me. But my mind gets in the way.

For example, goal setting involves setting down figures and targets. Then, my eyes are on these targets and my mind is working on how I can achieve this. Where does one draw the line between self-effort and trusting God?

Actually, there is a difference.

Our action will produce an effect. Like, when I make a call, I may get an appointment or a decline. Knowing the effect of my action is NOT relying on the effect. When one relies on the action and starts trusting in it, then that is self-effort.

So when I set my goals and targets, I'll simply DO the things I'm supposed to do.

As a sister and colleague says, "we just do the things we're supposed to do in our job, and let God take care of the rest. Factors like favour, the kind of people we see, etc.."

Because of this intellectual dilemna, I've been subconsciously holding back.

Actually, when we simply abide in Abba's love, there is nothing wrong that we can do. We just follow our hearts for He writes His laws there (Hebrews 8)

Recently, I've had this mental picture whenever I am 'confused'. I look at myself and see how I am led - by my head or my heart.

In every instance in the bible, when God leads, He requires a step of faith on our part. He needs us to move. So when I make this 'move', when I DO that step, I'm simply doing it, but my reliance and trust and my eyes are fixed on Him.

It reminds me of one of my favourite songs, "Here I am"

This song begins with the same question God asked and Isaiah answered.

Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, "Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?" And I said, "Here am I. Send me!" Isaiah 6:8

In the natural, it was a dangerous time to follow God. It was not a 'popular' time Him (consider prophet Jeremiah too) But look at Isaiah's response.

How much more today? We who live after the cross, after Jesus.. for victory is already purchased by His precious blood! Whenever we need assurance we only have to look back at the cross... How the saints of the past longed for a time like ours!

After all that He has done in love.. we love because He first loved us and we are able to give because He has already given to us.. not on our own strength but because we are already blessed to be a blessing.


Here I am
words by Rebecca St James & Bill Deaton, music by Eric Champion

"God asks the question, "Whom shall I send?"
Now what will we answer?
Will we go and do as He says?
All that He wants is a heart, ready, willing and waiting

Here I am
I surrender my life to the use of your plan
Here I am
I will do as You say
I will go where You send
Here I am

Jesus commanded us
"Go and tell the good news."
For the harvest is many, but the workers are so few
All that He wants is a heart
Believing, serving and loving Him

Here I am
I surrender my life to the use of your plan
Here I am
I will do as You say
I will go where You send
Here I am

Lord, I give myself to You
My God I trust in You
Lord, tell me Your ways,
show me how to live
Guide me in Your truth and teach me my God, my Saviour

Here I am
I surrender my life to the use of Your plan
Here I am
I will do as You say
I will go wehre You send
Here I am"


Check it out: http://rsjames.com/music.html (from the album The Best of..)